Stardate 01202005 LOL...Okay, so I had to throw a little Star Trek into this. I did grow up with it and spend most of the day Tuesday watching it. Whoops.

It can get scary sometimes when you don't know what you are doing in your life...when you try to think of things, but can't because your mind itself has gone completely numb...when your total lack of sleep increases your irritablility to the point that one little thing not going right can set you off or make you break down. For the last two weeks that is how I have been. Started off just with a normal depressive stage (always happens during the winter months), and then just went downhill from there. I stopped sleeping on Sunday, tried to take my medicine, but that didn't work in the least bit and didn't finally get to pass out until Wednesday night. A little scary when I think about it. I had never gotten to that point before...but I guess I finally hit it. Hopefully things will be okay from here on in.

Things are starting to work out again some with the boy too. We had a talk Saturday regarding each others attitudes and just plain ol' problems too. Of course this is the first time that I started opening up period to anyone (one of my flaws with my relationships...I never open up) so it was a little weird. But maybe it will help with things. Hopefully.

Okay, so why does this cold snap need to last any longer? It needs to be back to the 70 degrees outside that it was only a week ago...that was so nice. Wear shorts in January....now I am sitting here with a beanie on my head and my fleece on...that sucks. Summer is not going to come too soon for me this year.

So what has happened with you this week? Anything interesting I should know about? Really?! Congrats for you!!! Well...I guess I better get back to getting ready for work. I will talk to you soon...and try not to make it as long as it was before.
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