This past weekend... This past Saturday I came into some extra money (yippee) and decided that I would go ahead and get my roommate his birthday present. What did he decide? The movie "Latter Days". What shock. LOL All joking aside, I think it was a good choice. I had been wanting to see it, and, although I wasn't in the mood to watch it with him Saturday night, I sat down anyway to eat and watch. For those of you who don't know what the movie is about, here are the basics: L.A. party boy and Idaho Mormon boy meet, fall in love, get separated and meet again. It could have been a little bit better acted and directed, but overlooking all that, it wasn't all bad. (I need to actually go back and watch it again later since I missed the last 30 minutes or so.)

But watching it brought to mind a friend that is going through some issues right now in his own life. And, knowing me, I started seeing similarities in what was going on. But there is one part that I thought was perfect. Actually two. The first one? There is a scene where Wes Ramsey visits an AIDS patient (Erik Palladino I think) and Erik says that Wes was depressing him. Erik gives him some good advice on how to deal with things. The other scene? Jacqueline Bisset sits Wes down at her restaurant, pours him a shot of Crown and tells him to drink it (in one shot so it would be medicinal). But she says the one thing about guilt is this: "guilt is good in that you feel bad and add guilt to it; you feel happy and you add guilt to it". Or something like that. I don't keep quotes after just one viewing..not always good about that. But guilt is one thing that makes us feel human. And makes us want to do better. My friend feels like he is without meaning right now....that will never happen. As long as he has someone out there caring about him, then his life has a lot of meaning. I know...he has brought a lot more meaning to my life and I live 3000 miles on the other side of the country from him!!

"I don't believe in coincidence. These days, I believe in miracles." (Jacqueline Bisset) A lot of things have happened to me in the last 24 years, and my friends are one of those. I have learned that I can be shallow at times, but who isn't? I have had a lover die, best friends too, but always I find the strength to carry on. I dealt with extremely suffocating and somewhat abusive parents, dealt with rape and an heavy-armed boyfriend; yet I managed to crawl out of it alive. Whatever happens to my friend and his life, I know that thing will end up okay in one way or another and he will grow just from that.

Love you, babe....just hang in there.

"We cheerfully assume that in some mystic way love conquers all, that good outweighs evil in the just balances of the universe and that at the eleventh hour something gloriously triumphant will prevent the worst before it happens."
 Brooks Atkinson


  ¶ 2/07/2005 04:33:00 AM