Crawl into My Head
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
  The things that make you go hmm....
Why do people continually insist on hurting themselves? Why do people think that it is better to blame others for their problems than focusing on themselves and fixing it? I never did understand that...always had a hard time figuring that one out.

Recently a friend of mine got herself fired from work, but her stubborness didn't want to listen to anything, so she cussed out everyone, slung her stuff around the cube while packing up and left. Every time she passes by the building she lets the bird fly. Yet she has no income, more than likely will not be able to get unemployment, and is thinking of changing states because "it is warmer in the other state." I don't get it. Admit that you screwed up, look for something else, move on...and stop trying to drink yourself to death or get yourself so high you have no clue what you have done. It affected you at work...don't repeat the same mistake.

I don't know. I think I might have the issue because I was there at one time but could pull myself out of the depths. I have always been a somewhat strong person, always worked on finding myself a job, quit drugs without any outside help. I made it through Darrell's death without support from anyone; supported myself without my parents for a long time. I had to learn to be strong for myself because no one else could be...or would. It took me a long time to realize that...especially after my disaster of a "marriage" to a guy in Greensboro. It is funny because he will email me once in awhile and try to brag to me about all this stuff that he is doing with his new little boy toy and try to lord it over me as something I am missing out on. I didn't move to join him because I saw his true colours and saw that he had not changed at all from what he had said. Not much of a shock there, but I am a firm believer that people can change...I did.

So why go and hurt yourself more, and try to shove the blame on someone/something else? Any answers?
 
Comments:
I think it's a cope-ing device. I know there are times I want to just scream and tell everyone to go to hell, but in situations like that you really shouldn't. But maybe she though "I am already fired, so what do I have to loose?

btw..Robbie is my dad's partner. ;-)
 
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