Migraines and Spirituality Well, since last week I have been suffering from my migraines again. Sucks how they come and go, and usually around certain times of the year. I would rather drown myself than deal with one. I was really sore and out of it on Saturday, but I didn't want to tell Patrick that I wasn't really up for hanging with anyone, so him, Matt and I went out to Best Buy, hit Toscana for dinner, and then traveled on down to Mayfaire Center to check out World Market and Coldstone Creamery. I drove because I figured that would help me stay focused...although I did get a little snappy when they couldn't figure out where to eat for dinner. Imagine that, two queers unable to make up their mind. Hmph. We made a quick stop at Patrick's house so we could check up on Petey (his cute lil' weiner dog). But the entire trip turned into a major "pick on Ian" festival since I wasn't talking. Matt doesn't feel comfortable with long silences, which sometimes are very good. So he started talking about the thing he knew best....me. Before I knew it, they both were going on me and secrets were being divulged that I didn't need to getting out yet. Oh well. I was supposed to stay at Patrick's that night, but I told him I would just stay at home. We got back around 930 or so, so I sent him home and crawled into bed and watched my anime on Cartoon Network. Sunday wasn't much better...still had a lot of pain going on (ugh) and I hardly managed to get anything done at all. Monday was worse because the pain decided to also migrate to my legs and knees. I hate that. I had started off pretty well, but then it just hit me really hard and blew me down. So I go home and try to get some rest. Yeah...about maybe a total of two hours true sleep and I can hardly sleep for the rest of the night. Joy. Sat and listened to Matt online defending gay marriage to a bunch of people that had some interesting lil' sound bytes for their AIM.
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Everyone in that chat room had something to spout off with spirituality and religion and how gay marriages goes against all teachings. Why do people have to tie in spirituality with religion? They are connected, but not interchangeable. I took a little quiz on AOL regarding my spirituality, which I thought would be funny since I never practice much of anything except trying my best to be nice to everyone. Ever hear the phrase "Karma is a bitch?" I have been a very good description of it. But I think I got my karma points back up. Anyone keeping track of where I am at these days? Anyway, I am found to be a "Spiritual Straddler – One foot in traditional
religion, one foot in free-form spirituality." Which I think is pretty accurate. I practice Judaism somewhat, but I believe more in doing the right thing. I have started learning more about Buddhism and meditation since it does help a lot with stress. But I never could understand following something that is so rigidly defined. Especially the Catholic Church, or the Southern Baptists. Are some people really that lost that they need someone else to define their lives for them? Someone please explain that to me...my migraine is coming back just thinking about it.



BT-Force of Gravity

Remember the words we use to speak
The promises made have turned to all apologies
The weight of a storm or memories
Still you're trying to fight the force of gravity

Force of Gravity

Remember the words we use to speak
The promises made have turned to all apologies
Stil you're trying to fight the force of gravity

I remember the days I still could breathe
Now, I'm sinking beneath the waves are crashing over me
The weight of a storm our memories
Is all that's left of where our love was meant to be

The force of gravity

Do you cry your eyes asleep?
Is it peace you seek at night when your body's weak?
Did it leave you with the scars of a war-torn raveged heart?
Do you cry your eyes asleep?

Do you cry your eyes asleep?
Is it peace you seek at night when your body's weak?
Did it leave you with the scars of a war-torn raveged heart?
Do you cry your eyes asleep?

Do you cry your eyes asleep?

Do you cry
Do you cry
Do you cry
Do you cry...

Do you cry your eyes aleep?
Is it peace you seek at night when your body's weak?
Did it leave you with the scars of a war-torn raveged heart?
Do you cry your eyes aleep?

Currently playing: BT -- Somnambulist and Superfabulous and Communicate  ¶ 4/26/2005 04:11:00 AM