Crawl into My Head
Monday, January 30, 2006
  The greatest thing...
It is better to say, "This one thing I do" than to say, "These forty things I dabble in."  ~Washington Gladden

So very true.  So many of us “dabble” in many things, but how many can claim we can do one thing with expertise?  And it be something that we are proud of?  I know that I most definitely cannot.  

Optimism is essential to achievement and it is also the foundation of courage and true progress.   ~Nicholas Murray Butler

It is hard to be optimistic when you see darkness around you, no candle to help light your way through.  Lately, I have felt that some, although most people see me as being upbeat and ever-lasting.  Okay, no puns were intended there, honestly.  LOL  But, while I might have a lot of things going for me, I don’t pay attention to them.  I focus on everything else that I don’t like.  There is a saying “The greatest thing in life is to love and be loved in return.”  I have it on one of my bookmarks at home.  And that is something that is nice to be said.  But how many of us travel through life loving someone and not knowing if it is returned?  How many wait on the other person to make that move we so desire?  Why do we wait?  What is the point?  Why not take control of ourselves and do something about it?  It sounds easy, but it really isn’t.  Not for us all.  We find something that we desire with heart and soul and don’t know how to move past when it doesn’t want to follow through in our wishes.


This weekend was okay.  Didn’t do much since most of my plans fell through.  Did manage to see a couple of people that I hadn’t seen in awhile, and talked with another on the phone.  But, I still managed to feel down through part of it.  Watched re-runs of Charmed on Sunday night while efforting to read.  That was a major success.  I still have to find homes for my daughters.  That is not going very well right now.  Each person that originally expresses an interest backs out.  So, it looks like I might be keeping them, at least for now.  Will have to see, I guess.

Hopefully this week will shape up better than last; although, this morning most definitely start off right.  Maybe I can just chalk that up to being a Manic Monday.  But, I will get back to reading my foundation modules for a job position I have yet to be formally trained on, and let the remix of “Seasons of Love” ease my nerves a bit.

Have a good day, and better week.

 
Comments:
Loving someone when they either can't or won't return your feelings can be a real bitch. I'm quite familiar with that phenomenon. At the same time, there's a big difference between desiring someone and loving them -- unfulfilled desire blows, but if you really love someone, it won't matter if they return it in the same way. Learning truly to love someone without conditions is its own reward.

Likewise, I've been guilty of focusing on the negatives in life. When I finally manage to shift my perspective and notice everything that is going right, it makes life flow much easier.
 
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