Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Personal Update 6/27/06
I know, I have not done any personal updates in awhile. Sorry.
Things are going okay. I have been staying busy with work, but, then again, when is that news? I guess it is pretty much living life one day at a time and just enjoying whatever finds me. Well, minus the work thing.
My internet is not currently working at home, so I have been a little upset about that. Not so much so that I can get online and whore-it around, but as more of a I miss talking to my friends. I have a lot that I normally chat with on AIM or Yahoo, and sometimes the ‘dear’ Gay.com (and I use dear extremely loosely), so it feels like I am cut off from everything at times. Plus, I can’t research for new entries, see what my friends have been up to with their works, or even just search for that new music. (Which I need to find a song, but the lyrics are now eluding me and my recording on the phone kinda sucked.)
I have also been working on some other aspects of my life. For so long I have been keeping more to myself, trying to get out of my funk. This past weekend saw me at the club both Friday and Saturday nights, getting drunk off my ass and just having a good time.
Friday night: Met up with Sam and Talen and just barhopped before ending up at Ibiza. Started at Costello’s, downed a beer in like three minutes, then ran up to Rum Runners, Underground (see my girl Michelle!), and then, finally, Ibiza. It was a lot of fun just looking at the guys in all of the places and talking to a few new folks at the club. Plus I got to see guys that I hadn’t seen in a long time. I didn’t dance as I was wearing my flip flops, but stayed out in the courtyard and chatted with friends new and old.
Saturday night: I headed out alone since JC didn’t feel up to going. He figured he would probably be out for July 4th, so he wanted to save himself for then. Hell, he was passed out just about as soon as he got home! So, I set up my spot by the door inside and drank my beer and watched as my friends gathered around. I did finally get off my stool and danced, stepping on glass in the process. I made a few new friends, as well, but still pretty much hung with the guys that I knew and trusted. I didn’t close the club down, but I was out around 3 and wandered down to NY Pizza before finally heading out to get some rest. I was still pretty drunk, so I ended up crashing at a friend’s house…and was nearly late for my breakfast with JC!
Sunday: This was a pretty slow day for me. Got home to see JC waiting on me by my door (remind me why I set up chairs by my door?), so he chilled for an extra five minutes as I showered and filled him in on my previous night activities and who was in attendance. After that, I decided to chill on the couch and go into recovery mode…which then ended when Shane said that I was going bowling with him and the gang that night. That ended up into a good amount of fun. I hadn’t bowled in at least three years, probably longer now that I think about it. I was originally going to just chill out at the lanes and watch to see about maybe coming back and sub’ing in, but Jonathan needed to jet for a work meeting, so I ended up playing for him. I got three strikes in the game that I played for him, but two were spares, so I don’t know if they should actually count. It was funny because Eric kept saying that any strikes that were had resulted in my losing an article of clothing. I hope he was including my socks and shoes in that because you know that I don’t wear underwear…and I was only wearing board shorts and a t-shirt! That would have been a very short strip show. But, then again, I could have really milked that one…. *smile* After the game it was off to Moe’s for dinner and some really…interesting…talk. *laugh* Honestly, I don’t think I have had that much fun in a very long time. It was almost like I was back in Raleigh or Greensboro with my friends there. I do miss them.
It was funny because me and a friend were talking about guys and I got called out as a relationship-oriented person. And I really hate to admit it (shows that emotional side that I like to keep hidden), but he is right. I have had my fair share of flings, but the relationships that I have had have been pretty serious. Chris I was married to for two years, and Matt and I dated for two years on that. Even though me and Dar were short lived, it was a pretty serious thing, not just a run of the mill fling. It is not that I go into something saying that it is going to happen, well, not anymore; but I do start looking for that little factor to see if I am compatible with that person. If I am, then I will proceed further into things. If not, then let it run its course and go from there. Like I have told a friend of mine, I have seen too much in the last few years that I am not going to just sit around and wait. It is time to enjoy the ride and see what happens. (Side note: I just realized that it has been almost three years since me and Matt split…wow!)
So, what is the morale of that little story? I have absolutely no idea. *laugh* But I do see this as a good change for me. I am starting to rebuild my confidence levels again (yes, I have lost them a few times) and going out to just have a good time. I still miss having a warm body in my bed, but I know that will change with time. I just have to remember to be patient. So, patient I will be. Cheers to another rebirth!
“We don’t know who we are until we see what we can do.” ~ Chinese saying
Song: Pink - "U+ Ur Hand" ¶ 6/27/2006 04:49:00 AM
Things are going okay. I have been staying busy with work, but, then again, when is that news? I guess it is pretty much living life one day at a time and just enjoying whatever finds me. Well, minus the work thing.
My internet is not currently working at home, so I have been a little upset about that. Not so much so that I can get online and whore-it around, but as more of a I miss talking to my friends. I have a lot that I normally chat with on AIM or Yahoo, and sometimes the ‘dear’ Gay.com (and I use dear extremely loosely), so it feels like I am cut off from everything at times. Plus, I can’t research for new entries, see what my friends have been up to with their works, or even just search for that new music. (Which I need to find a song, but the lyrics are now eluding me and my recording on the phone kinda sucked.)
I have also been working on some other aspects of my life. For so long I have been keeping more to myself, trying to get out of my funk. This past weekend saw me at the club both Friday and Saturday nights, getting drunk off my ass and just having a good time.
Friday night: Met up with Sam and Talen and just barhopped before ending up at Ibiza. Started at Costello’s, downed a beer in like three minutes, then ran up to Rum Runners, Underground (see my girl Michelle!), and then, finally, Ibiza. It was a lot of fun just looking at the guys in all of the places and talking to a few new folks at the club. Plus I got to see guys that I hadn’t seen in a long time. I didn’t dance as I was wearing my flip flops, but stayed out in the courtyard and chatted with friends new and old.
Saturday night: I headed out alone since JC didn’t feel up to going. He figured he would probably be out for July 4th, so he wanted to save himself for then. Hell, he was passed out just about as soon as he got home! So, I set up my spot by the door inside and drank my beer and watched as my friends gathered around. I did finally get off my stool and danced, stepping on glass in the process. I made a few new friends, as well, but still pretty much hung with the guys that I knew and trusted. I didn’t close the club down, but I was out around 3 and wandered down to NY Pizza before finally heading out to get some rest. I was still pretty drunk, so I ended up crashing at a friend’s house…and was nearly late for my breakfast with JC!
Sunday: This was a pretty slow day for me. Got home to see JC waiting on me by my door (remind me why I set up chairs by my door?), so he chilled for an extra five minutes as I showered and filled him in on my previous night activities and who was in attendance. After that, I decided to chill on the couch and go into recovery mode…which then ended when Shane said that I was going bowling with him and the gang that night. That ended up into a good amount of fun. I hadn’t bowled in at least three years, probably longer now that I think about it. I was originally going to just chill out at the lanes and watch to see about maybe coming back and sub’ing in, but Jonathan needed to jet for a work meeting, so I ended up playing for him. I got three strikes in the game that I played for him, but two were spares, so I don’t know if they should actually count. It was funny because Eric kept saying that any strikes that were had resulted in my losing an article of clothing. I hope he was including my socks and shoes in that because you know that I don’t wear underwear…and I was only wearing board shorts and a t-shirt! That would have been a very short strip show. But, then again, I could have really milked that one…. *smile* After the game it was off to Moe’s for dinner and some really…interesting…talk. *laugh* Honestly, I don’t think I have had that much fun in a very long time. It was almost like I was back in Raleigh or Greensboro with my friends there. I do miss them.
It was funny because me and a friend were talking about guys and I got called out as a relationship-oriented person. And I really hate to admit it (shows that emotional side that I like to keep hidden), but he is right. I have had my fair share of flings, but the relationships that I have had have been pretty serious. Chris I was married to for two years, and Matt and I dated for two years on that. Even though me and Dar were short lived, it was a pretty serious thing, not just a run of the mill fling. It is not that I go into something saying that it is going to happen, well, not anymore; but I do start looking for that little factor to see if I am compatible with that person. If I am, then I will proceed further into things. If not, then let it run its course and go from there. Like I have told a friend of mine, I have seen too much in the last few years that I am not going to just sit around and wait. It is time to enjoy the ride and see what happens. (Side note: I just realized that it has been almost three years since me and Matt split…wow!)
So, what is the morale of that little story? I have absolutely no idea. *laugh* But I do see this as a good change for me. I am starting to rebuild my confidence levels again (yes, I have lost them a few times) and going out to just have a good time. I still miss having a warm body in my bed, but I know that will change with time. I just have to remember to be patient. So, patient I will be. Cheers to another rebirth!
“We don’t know who we are until we see what we can do.” ~ Chinese saying
Song: Pink - "U+ Ur Hand" ¶ 6/27/2006 04:49:00 AM
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