Manic Mondays...
Which OS are You?

Okay, so it is Monday morning and I wonder what I did with my weekend. Pretty much nothing. Did my laundry, cleaned a friend's house (which led to my roommate asking if we were dating), and sat in my room on Sunday reading while listening/slightly watching TV. Did manage to actually get through the first of the Chronicles of Narnia miniseries I bought. I fell asleep watching it the other night. I can still tell that I am not fully caught up on my sleep...still have that feeling of exhaustion. Plus the dreams are really weird and I toss and turn most of the night. Last night was horrible. But, oh well, what can I do about it? Not too much right now.

Kinda played the recluse a bit this weekend, needing some "me" time. But I did get to thinking about some people that I have not talked to in a bit. Just wanted to say to all of them that I really do care about them and do miss them. There are various reasons as to why I don't talk to them very much these days, ranging from work to not wanting to cause rifts in other parts of their life. I know that I could be better right now, but I won't make any excuses. I fell down, and I realize it. There is a quote that I have attached to all of my Yahoo email: "It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone; but it takes a lifetime to forget someone." That goes for more than just someone you loved. No matter how you may feel when you find out that someone wants to give up on truly getting to know you because if a distance in location, you will always think of them in your hearts. I have made the decision to stay mostly out of his way so that he doesn't have to deal with slack from another friend of his, a former friend to me. I know how he feels that a lot of people take advantage of him...just wanted to say that I have always cared.

On a good note, only a few more days before I leave for the first of my mini-vacations. Can't wait. Trying to make sure that everything is wrapped up so I can leave and know all is good. The second mini-vaca is a little more dependent on events and financial situations, but hopefully I can take a trip with friends to the mountains this Thanksgiving break. Would be a little bit nicer than sticking around Wilmington for four days.

Some of ya'll know that I have been seriously considering relocating elsewhere come March, provided all goes according to plan. {internal thought: What was that saying about mice and men?} I had gone and updated my resume on Monster.com and have actually received two job offers! One was in Raleigh, and the other is a remote office from Connecticut. Thinking about that one, although I know I don't meet the schooling requirements. Which is why I am looking back at school.

Anyway, it is Monday, and since I missed HNT (again), have something to cheer your day up. (Extra points if you can figure out what is on the wall behind me)

Today's Quotes:

Clear mind is like the full moon in the sky. Sometimes clouds come and cover it, but the moon is always behind them. Clouds go away, then the moon shines brightly. So don't worry about clear mind: it is always there. When thinking comes, behind it is clear mind. When thinking goes, there is only clear mind. Thinking comes and goes, comes and goes, you must not be attached to the coming or the going. ~Zen Master Seung Sahn


If I have ever made any valuable discoveries, it has been owing more to patient attention than to any other talent. ~Isaac Newton (1642-1727) English Scientist

We're all in this together - by ourselves. ~Lily Tomlin


One more note: I was asked recently about Brokeback Mountain. I will admit, that although I am gay, I don't go for most of the gay films that have been produced. A lot that I have seen perpetuate many of the stereotypes with which we have been cast; shockingly, I look for those that have depth to them. I am interested in seeing how this one will turn out; especially since it has two hot guys starring in it. LOL (yeah, the base me will shine on occasion. Side note: My roommate got a little offended, I think, over the weekend. He had been lying across my bed and looking at my MEN magazines and commenting on the guys' tools. I looked at him and asked point blank: Why are you so obsessed with dcks? His answer was because he was gay. Why do I feel so wrong by not focusing on that all the time? I mean, for all my comments and whatnot, I really could care less about if I get laid or seeing some guy's butt or dck. Anyway, back to original train of thought...) Movies that have made it to my list: Beautiful Thing, Priscilla, The Birdcage (can't help it!), Farewell My Concubine, A Home at the End of the World, Angels in America, Latter Days, Bent, Maurice, My Own Private Idaho, Torch Song Trilogy, Boy's Don't Cry, Cowboys & Angels, In & Out, To Wong Foo, Jeffrey, Soldier's Girl, Broken Hearts Club (a tad stereotypical I will admit), Big Eden, The Object of My Affection, Trick (just funny), Johns, Kiss Me Guido (funny), and Speedway Junky. Johns and Speedway Junky strike close to home...those close to my more personal past will know why if they have seen it. But that is just a selection of ones I have enjoyed.

Now that I just put this a lot longer than originally planned, have a great day!

Songs of the Morning: Ryan Cabrerra, True; Ray Charles vs. Dio, Walkin & Talkin (songs courtesy of ThriveMix01)  ¶ 11/14/2005 04:02:00 AM