Trainwreck Tuesdays down Memory Lane Tuesday mornings. Why, after Mondays, is that the other day that I dread so much in the work week? I never could figure that out. Who knows.

Okay, so I told you about the CDA position being granted to me. Can’t wait…it starts officially on Friday. They are looking to get me moved then as well. If that happens, though, I will not be happy since that means most of the stuff at my desk will have to be packed up and brought home. The proposed seat has no shelves to it…which means no display space!!! ARGH! Okay, calm down, it isn’t the end of the world. Yet.

I did a little travel down memory lane this morning, too. Had to go back to my last post, which, incidentally, was Tuesday of last week! Emotions, emotions, emotions. I know that I can’t say too much, because I have chosen to place myself in this spot. Me and my friend still hang out a lot, and still perform little side events, if you can catch my drift. These little side events contain a lot of emotion with me, which can cause a little havoc. It was kinda funny this past weekend because I actually did a feel a little pang of regret while missing him. He had to go out of town for some prior obligations. I went through the weekend okay, but still wished that he had been around, even though I know that I wouldn’t have discussed anything with him. Not his fault, just didn’t know how to be able to place it all in words. Last night was great, though. A little game of Who-Teased-Who and just being able to talk with him. The ability to share events and a laugh or two, that is what I really needed. Not sure what it is, but there is just a sense of calm that I get when I am around him. Of course, the side events are great too…not sure what I would do if they stopped. I actually had a spot hit last night that hardly, if ever, gets hit. That was what really got me the most. Like I said, I still love the fella dearly, but I know that I can’t get hung up on it. As long as he sticks around in some manner, that is the best that I can ask and hope for in life.

And then I got reminded of a pet peeve of mine. Kinda ties back into my guest post. I was logged into Connexion this morning checking to see what a friend of mine was writing me. While checking that out, and a few profiles, some little kid decides to IM me. Okay, I have no problems with IM’s in the least bit. But don’t be brand new to a site; don’t have a picture up; hit someone up telling them they are hot; and then, when the answer to “Do you have cam?” is No, don’t sign off immediately and not want to talk. I don’t mind the whole not having a picture up. But, some of us are not into cam, but we would love to chat and meet people. I don’t get online that often anymore…too many people are so concerned these days with seeing someone else on the other end and trying to get off in some manner. If you don’t want to talk, then don’t bug me. That is my philosophy.

So, I am now on Trainwreck Tuesday and not enjoying the day in the least bit.

And don’t worry, Ethan. I have not forgotten about you!! For those of you who are new, my friend Ethan has had his blog nominated for Best LGBT Blog. We are all trying our damnest to make sure that he gets the award, for it is something he completely deserves. So, check him out, and then go vote!!!! You can vote once every twenty-four hours; voting ends on Thursday, November 15th! So cast your vote now!!


In the same way that rain breaks into a house with a bad roof, desire breaks into the mind that has not been practicing meditation. ~Gautama Buddha

If you have not often felt the joy of doing a kind act, you have neglected much, and most of all yourself. ~A. Neilen  ¶ 12/13/2005 06:33:00 AM