So let me go back to this past weekend and then we will catch up from there.
News of the first degree: Me and Zach are doing good. It is a little rough not being in the same city, but we are making it through to the best of our abilities. He came down Friday night and met one of the finest from Duplin County….they are such jerks there. But, that is no worries…that will be taken care of with no problems. I managed to get some sun before he came down, and then just had him meet at JC’s house while I was getting things put together. Dinner with friends, and then back to the apartment to lay on the couch and watch TV for a bit. Saturday saw us over at JC’s place with the last minute preparations for twenty of the Southeast Coastal North Carolina to show up for a grill-out birthday party. Turned out pretty cool…no fights and everyone seemed to have a blast. My turkery burgers went pretty fast, but there were only four, so I am not complaining. Amber and her girlfriend made an unplanned trip down, so they came over for the festivities for a bit as well. It was so good to see her, and finally meet Nadine. Nadine is so sweet, too!! I am so glad that Amber is happy these days…she so fucking deserves it! (Brief history: Me and Amber used to work together while we lived in Greensboro and I have always told her that she would be the one girl that I would screw if I ever decided to switch sides for a day.) Saturday night? Four fags in a one bedroom apartment. And, no, none of THAT happened. Jeff and Jim stayed with me and we found out that my queen air mattress does fit in the living room…what a nice surprise!
Sunday saw me a little disappointed because Zach had to go home early, but I knew that he needed to get his schoolwork completed. So I trekked around town with JC and Jeff for a bit before finally going home and playing on the computer, trying to get my mp3 player to work and load songs.
Skip ahead a few days….
My week started off rough yet again. My weekend didn’t end totally on the good side. Saturday night saw me and the old roomie arguing about events that had happened the previous weekend while I was out of town. I do have to thank his boy for laying into him for the way that he was acting…I really do appreciate it. I understand that my friends have some concerns about what I do at times and want to make sure that I don’t get into anything that I will not be able to get myself out of…and that I am not irresponsible in the process. I appreciate that. But, I am a big boy, I have taken care of myself for awhile, and this would not be the first time that I have dealt with a situation like this. My request: Please trust me. Please be objective if you wish to discuss it…don’t jump to automatic reactions…that can cause a big rift in anything. As Kim English sings, “it makes a difference” how a person’s reaction comes across. That is the only thing that I really ask from anyone.
And I was not happy at work because of some issues that I don’t feel like getting into here. And, on top of that, my cell phone had been acting up again and starting
to annoy me. Last week I had gone into the Alltel store that I normally frequent to see about replacing my phone. My usual company rep had been MIA, and my rep at the store was busy. So, I dealt with some new lady that got on my nerves the wrong way immediately. She was smug when she told me that they had discontinued my Nokia 6255i. She tried to tell me that my company discount would not apply for purchasing a new phone outright. Sorry…you don’t do that someone. And then she stated that I would have pay full price for a new phone because I had time left on my contract. Sorry, cookie…don’t think so. So, I politely called her a bitch under my breath and walked out the door…luckily my friend was there to tell her thank you for me. He even tried to call his rep to see if there was anything that I would be able to do…no answer, though. So, yesterday, after my phone had dropped several calls and decided that it wanted to turn itself off repeatedly for no reason, I said fuck it. My friend, Chris, had told me to go talk to his rep at the other store. Four o’clock rolled around and found me waiting fifteen minutes to talk with a girl named Carolyn. Sweet little girl, I do have to admit. She ended up hooking me up with a new phone and let me file an insurance claim for the old phone. I didn’t even have to pay the deductible…she billed that to my account for next month’s bill. Walked out with the Kyocera Slider Remix. It is actually pretty cool lookin’…and the best part is that I can still use my Bluetooth with it! That is always key. The graphics are very clear on it; I can play music if I wish. Hell, the phone came with the software and cables to move music from the computer to the phone…and two SIM cards to store it on as well. Oh…and the headphones for it as well. The downside is that only a portion of the headphones fit in my mp3 player, so it looks like I will still need to be replacing my old headphones.Hopefully this weekend will see me traveling up to Fayetteville…I want to be able to hold my boy again. Yeah, I think I am falling for him. It is nice sleeping next to him at night…even if he might feel a little claustrophobic in the mornings because I am wrapped around him and he is shoved by the edge of the bed. Sorry, buddy, don’t mean to! But he knows that, and it is all cool.
So, I guess it is just a matter of waiting to see how things will unfold for this weekend. Cross my fingers…
Oh…and a word to one of my other friends: It will be okay, babe. Things will be rough and tense, but you will get through it all, and you know where to find us if you need us.
Song of the Day: Gillette’s “Sex Tonight”
Danni Minogue's "Put the Needle On It"
Words of Wisdom
Accept no one's definition of your life, but define yourself.
~Harvey Fierstein
Be kind whenever possible - It is always possible.
~His Holiness the Dalai Lama
At first dreams seem impossible, then improbable, then inevitable.
~Christopher Reeve (1952-2004) American Actor
believe that the very purpose of our life is to seek happiness. That is clear. Whether one believes in religion or not, whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we all are seeking something better in life. So, I think, the very motion of our life is towards happiness. ~His Holiness the Dalai Lama
The potential of the average person is like a huge ocean unsailed, a new continent unexplored, a world of possibilites waiting to be released and channeled toward some great good. ~Brian Tracy
Each of us in our own way can try to spread compassion into people's hearts. Western civilizations these days place great importance on filling the human "brain" with knowledge, but no one seems to care about filling the human "heart" with compassion. This is what the real role of religion is.
~His Holiness the Dalai Lama
We need a renaissance of wonder. We need to renew, in our hearts and in our souls, the deathless dream, the eternal poetry, the perennial sense that life is miracle and magic.
~E. Merrill Root (1895-1973) American Writer
Confidence on the outside begins by living with integrity on the inside. ~Brian Tracy
Basically we are all the same human beings with the same potential to be a good human being or a bad human being… The important thing is to realize the positive side and try to increase that; realize the negative side and try to reduce. That’s the way. ~The Dalai Lama
I love friends. I want more friends. I love smiles. That is a fact. How to develop smiles? There are a variety of smiles. Some smiles are sarcastic. Some smiles are artificial - diplomatic smiles. These smiles do not produce satisfaction, but rather fear or suspicion. But a genuine smile gives us home, freshness. ~The Dalai Lama
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