The middle of the week... I believe all suffering is caused by ignorance. People inflict pain on others in the selfish pursuit of their happiness or satisfaction. Yet true happiness comes from a sense of peace and contentment, which in turn must be achieved through the cultivation of altruism, of love and compassion, and elimination of ignorance, selfishness, and greed.
-His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Thank god, or whomever, that it is Wednesday and this week is almost over. Been dealing with bullshit on several sides and haven't been in the greatest mood all week. Add in the fact that I really haven't slept, and that really makes for being a bitch right now. Zach was able to get 11 hours of sleep last night...I so wish I could do that just one day. I just want several days where I can just do nothing...no worries, just bullshit. But, that doesn't ever seem to happen, so whatever.

Lately, I have been accused of using the word 'whatever' as a way of writing off what one tells me. That is not even the case. Well, most times. It is more of an "I'm tired of all the crap right now and get back to me when I really am actually going to give a shit." That probably isn't the best attitude to have at the moment, but I really can't help it. Because of everything this week, I have been in a devil-may-care, go-sit-on-a-log attitude. LOL Sad part? I know several people who would try to stick that log up their ass and make it fit. What has the world come to these days?

With all the frustrations I have been feeling lately, I need to find a nice outlet for release. I have Gamecube games, but no platform for them. I don't know anyone who would be willing to lend me a raquetball raquet and play with me...or at least remind me of the full rules and everything. I don't know anyone who has a soccer ball that I can kick around and pound into a wall somewhere. So...I feel a little lost.

I have yet again lost faith in men of my ilk, but, then again, why do I keep bothering to keep putting faith into people that really don't seem to care much. I have no clue. I am stopping that now. I have been fucked over so many times as of late that I am tired of it. Just another fun day in my life. Normally it really doesn't get this bad.

At least there is only one more day left for work for me this week and then maybe I can spend some time at the beach with some music and just fall asleep.......

I am open to the guidance of synchronicity, and do not let expectations hinder my path.
-His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Sometimes one creates a dynamic impression by saying something and sometimes one creates as significant an impression by remaining silent. -His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Song of the Day

Real Life - Send Me an Angel (remix)


Do you believe in heaven above,
Do you believe in love?
Don't tell a lie
Don't be false or untrue
It all comes back to you

Open fire on my burning heart
I've never been lucky in love
My defenses are down
A kiss or a frown
I can't survive on my own

If a girl walks in
And carves her name in my heart
I'll turn and run away
Everyday we've all been led astray
It's hard to be lucky in love

It gets in your eyes
It's making you cry
Don't know what to do
Don't know what to do
Looking for love
Calling heaven above

Send me an angel
Send me an angel
Right now right now

Empty dreams can only disappoint
In a room behind your smile
But don't give up don't give up
You can be lucky in love  ¶ 4/26/2006 07:41:00 AM