Friday...and I don't see far into the future Let's see...I think the last thing was talking about Matt and wondering on the new kitten...I did get the new baby (her name is Kit, short for Kit Fox since her head is fox-shaped) and she is doing well in her new home. She runs to greet me when I get home from work and loves to sleep on my fleece blanket. Jas finally allowed her to sleep on the bed at the same time...it was kinda funny because they were taking turns sleeping there. Kit would get the first half of the night and Jas would get the second half. But now they try to sandwich me...when Kit isn't playing with my face or legs or whatever moves. Matt passed his tests, but because he was on meds they told him that he needed to wait a year after they were out of system before he can be allowed in the military. So I guess that it is back to the drawing board for him right now. I know that he is very depressed about it, but things will look up for him...that is what I keep telling him. Right now we are sorta at odds with each other because a friend of his has an interest in me..and I him. But I'll get to that later.Things fell out with me and Chris, but I think we are going to try to remain friends. Maybe that will be just as well. A little bit of an ease on me emotionally and everything..and on the rest of my friends and family. They don't want me to go through what I had before, so I think that all will be well.Hurricane Charley came through about a week ago..that was fun. It really wasn't as bad as they kept saying it would be...I am glad for that. But at least I was able to get a little sleep during it. I have been so exhausted lately with work and emotional strains all around...kinda drains a person. But I can always turn to my Anastacia cd (I finally got it!!!) and she makes me feel good again. This girl went through breast cancer and you would never be able to tell now. She had gotten really depressed with it (her song "heavy on my heart" is from that time period), but she pulled through it and came out stronger. I remember seeing her on Lifetime's Breast Cancer Awareness Concert performing and she broke down while singing the song...it tugs at your heart strings. There are a few songs on there that I can relate too, but the best one that I always try to remember is "Time"....(check out snippets from the new album at http://www.anastacia.com) Alright, back to the roommate situation and the friend. He is a little military boy that Matt had met back around February and he grew some feelings for him. Well, the kid wanted to meet me and hang out with me...and we did finally a few weeks ago. Well, now the kid is interested in me, and I in him. It had seemed like things had cooled down between him and Matt. But Matt still has feelings for both me and him. I know that it hurts him, but we are doing what we can for each other...I just don't want to lose him as a friend. Perhaps later on I might go back to him, but right now I want to experience other things and maybe see if I missed that person out there. Finding people in our society that are decent is a hard thing to do...it is like they don't know how to truly treat others with kindness and fairness. But I guess I will just have to see how things play out....I am supposed to see the boy before he gets shipped out in September to go overseas.Well, today is Friday, and for that I am happy. I am actually going to try to relax some this weekend...I actually turned down overtime for the first time in my life so I could get some rest. I am going to try doing some reading or drawing, but there is no telling; everytime that I say that I am going to do something, I don't. I am still waiting on painting a couple of tables...and I should do my bookshelves too. *laugh* I guess we will see on that one!Okay...enough for now. This is Aiden signing off from Wilmington, NC, where the sun is shining, but it seems cloudy inside. =)
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