The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.

-- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900) Irish Dramatist and Poet



Songs:
Papa Roach: Scars
Indigo Girls: Closer to Fine
Tyler Hilton: That's How Love Should Be
Rob Thomas: This is How a Heart Breaks
Pat Benatar: Love is a Battlefield
Melissa Etheridge: Angels Would Fall  ¶ 7/29/2005 07:15:00 AM 0 comments

 

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  ¶ 7/28/2005 10:50:00 AM 0 comments

  A good thing to remember.... As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

It is never too late to be what you might have been.

-- George Eliot (1819-1880) English Novelist  ¶ 7/28/2005 10:37:00 AM 0 comments

  The beach....




Just a few pics from the beach a few days ago....was a little windy and the kids were playing with kites. It was really nice and relaxing, and just what I needed after a really stressful week last week.  ¶ 7/28/2005 10:32:00 AM 0 comments

  Now this is scary Falwell Backs 'Reorientation Therapy' for Gay, Questioning Teens
by Ross von Metzke
Asheville, NC - Speaking at the annual conference of Exodus International, the nation’s largest religious group promoting the idea that gays can change their sexual orientation, the Rev. Jerry Falwell endorsed forcing gay kids into counseling designed to change their sexual orientation.
Jerry Falwell compared allowing a child to identify as gay with allowing children to play on the interstate. Falwell went on to dismiss psychologists’ claims that consent is fundamental to a healthy counseling relationship and that parents should not force their gay kids into therapy.
Exodus International’s 30th annual Freedom Conference took place last week at the Baptist Ridgecrest conference center near Asheville, North Carolina. Featured speakers included Falwell and psychotherapist Dr. Nancy Heche, mother of actress Anne Heche who spent three years at the center of a very public relationship with Ellen DeGeneres.
According to the Associated Press, nearly 1,000 people participated in the weeklong program that featured workshops on spiritual warfare, fulfilling traditional gender roles and organizing as a political movement.
This year’s conference was in the spotlight more than usual because one of the Exodus member ministries, Love in Action, is under investigation by the Tennessee Department of Health for violations of state law. Love in Action advertised therapeutic counseling to treat homosexuality as well as drug, alcohol and porn addiction.
Earlier this week, 16-year-old Zach Stark, who made national headlines with web blogs suggesting his parents were forcing him into reparative therapy to turn him straight, was released from Love in Action.
Stark’s story helped to raise issues of safety and professionalism at Love in Action. Since the story first broke, activists have been working with the state of Tennessee on an ongoing investigation.
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Kinda scary...and a little funny considering I opened my email this morning to the following quotes:
"In order to rally people, governments need enemies. They want us to be afraid, to hate, so we will rally behind them. And if they do not have a real enemy, they will invent one in order to mobilize us."
~Thich Nhat Hanh
and
"The sign of intelligent people is their ability to control emotionsby the application of reason."
-- Marya Mannes (1904-1990) American Journalist

Definitely scary and showing the lack of intelligence.

My song for the day: "I Got My Pride" by Barry Harris feat. Pepper Mashay  ¶ 7/27/2005 08:43:00 AM 3 comments

  If in our daily life we can smile, if we can be peaceful and happy, not only we, but everyone will profit from it. This is the most basic kind of peace work.
Thich Nhat Hanh

To do the useful thing, to say the courageous thing, to contemplate the beautiful thing: that is enough for one man's life.
-- T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American Poet

Song: This is How the Heart Breaks - Rob Thomas  ¶ 7/26/2005 04:49:00 AM 0 comments

  Man is happy only as he finds work worth doing -- and does it well.
-- E. Merrill Root (1895-1973) American Writer  ¶ 7/25/2005 11:50:00 AM 0 comments

  Hey there Spent this weekend trying to forget all the drama of last week. Hope you had a good one.

A person is only as big as the dream they dare to live.
-- Unknown

Tact is the knack of making a point without making an enemy.
-- Howard W. Newton  ¶ 7/25/2005 04:56:00 AM 0 comments

  Clarifications... Just in case you ever get these two environments mixed up, this should make things a little bit clearer.
IN PRISON..........you spend the majority of your time in an 10X10cell.
AT WORK............you spend the majority of your time in an 8X8cubicle.

IN PRISON.........you get three meals a day.
AT WORK...........you get a break for one meal and you have to pay for it.

IN PRISON..........you get time off for good behavior.
AT WORK............you get more work for good behavior.

IN PRISON..........the guard locks and unlocks all the doors for you.
AT WORK............you must often carry a security card and open all the doors for yourself.

IN PRISON..........you can watch TV and play games.
AT WORK...........you could get fired for watching TV and playing games.

IN PRISON.........you get your own toilet.
AT WORK..........you have to share the toilet with some people who pee on the seat.

IN PRISON..........they allow your family and friends to visit.
AT WORK............you aren't even supposed to speak to your family.

IN PRISON.........all expenses are paid by the taxpayers with no work required.
AT WORK............you get to pay all your expenses to go to work, and they deduct taxes from your salary to pay for prisoners.

IN PRISON..........you spend most of your life inside bars wanting to get out.
AT WORK ...........you spend most of your time wanting to get out and go inside bars.

IN PRISON .........you must deal with sadistic wardens.
AT WORK...........they are called managers  ¶ 7/21/2005 09:14:00 AM 1 comments

  A week from hell Okay, I am not discussing much at the moment, as I do not care to discuss it from my current location. So probably this week I will elaborate some more on this. So, instead, I am going to eat some peanut butter and post the recent quotes, etc that I have received via email and pray for this week/month to be over and done with.

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What ought one to say then as each hardship comes? I was practicing for this, I was training for this.
-- Epictetus (55-135 AD) Roman Philosopher

There is no path to that which is beyond all the paths that men have made and trodden. To find that pathless reality, you have to see the truth in the false, or the false as the false. If you perceive that the path you have trodden is false - not in comparison with something else, not through the judgment of disappointment, nor through the evaluation of social morality, but false in itself - then that very perception of the false is awareness of the true.
--Krishnamurti

Songs of the day:
Rumors ft Ludacris - Lindsay Lohan
Karma remix - Alicia Keys
Flawless remix - George Michael
Scandalous remix - Mis Teeq  ¶ 7/21/2005 09:07:00 AM 0 comments

  Catch up!! There is no path to reality. Reality is a pathless land, and you must venture out and discover it for yourself. It is because you are frightened inwardly that you depend on something, on the priest, or on a belief, and so you get caught in the net of an organized religion.


I feel that no one can lead another to truth, because truth is infinite; it is a pathless land, and no one can tell you how to find it. No one can teach you to be an artist; another can only give you the brushes and canvas and show you the colours to use.
You cannot discover the path, because there is no path, Truth is a thing that is living, and to a living thing there is no path - it is only to dead things that there can be a path. Truth being pathless, to discover it you must be adventurous, ready for danger; and do you think a guru will help you to be adventurous, to live in danger? To seek a guru obviously indicates that you are not adventurous, that you are merely seeking a path to reality as a means of security.
Krishnamurti

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Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life.
-- Sophia Loren (1934- ) Italian Actress

To get your ideas across use small words, big ideas, and shortsentences.
-- John Henry Patterson

Seek respect mainly from thyself, for it comes first from within.
-- Steven H. Coogler

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Okay, so the last week wasn't the greatest in my life. But that is okay. I am a strong person and can move on with no problems. Me and Brian have decided to remain friends...he has a lot of decisions to make regarding school, work and his personal life. I know that he hasn't had a lot of time for his daughter as of late either, so that has been a weighing factor on him. I wish him all the best of luck, and I will always be there for him if he needs a shoulder cry on. After all, friends can provide the sturdiest foundation to rebuild from when all else has failed.

Songs of the day:
Sonique - Alive
Anastacia - Sick and Tired remix
Nelly & Christina - Tilt Ya Head Back
DHT- Heaven is a place on Earth
Paul van Dyk - Tell Me Why
Aretha Franklin - A Deeper Love  ¶ 7/19/2005 07:50:00 AM 0 comments

  Eric Himan Okay, so he came to perform at Ibiza last week and I missed it. Turns out, he wasn't that bad...and the snippets on his website are pretty good too. His albums might be my next good investment. Hopefully. Oh...and isn't he pretty hot too??

Check out his website







On other notes, just some cute little stuff.....

Doggie Mind Games
1. After your humans give you a bath, DON'T LET THEM TOWEL DRY YOU! Instead, run to their bed, jump up and dry yourself off on the sheets. This is especially good if it's right before your human's bedtime. (and they have just put the white satin sheets on the bed)
2. Act like a convicted criminal. When the humans come home, put your ears back, tail between your legs, chin down and act as if you have done something really bad. Then, watch as the humans frantically search the house for the damage they think you have caused. (Note: This only works when you have done absolutely nothing wrong.)
3. Let the humans teach you a brand new trick. Learn it perfectly. Then the humans try to demonstrate it to someone else, stare blankly back at the humans. Pretend you have no idea what they're talking about.
4. Make your humans be patient. When you go outside to go 'pee', sniff around the entire yard as your humans wait. Act as if the spot you choose to go pee will ultimately decide the fate of the earth.
5. Draw attention to the human. When out for a walk always pick the busiest, most visible spot to go 'poo'. Take your time and make sure everyone watches. This works particularly well if your humans have forgotten to bring a plastic bag.
6. When out for a walk, alternate between choking and coughing every time a strange human walks by.
7. Make your own rules. Don't always bring back the stick when playing fetch with the humans. Make them go and chase it once in a while.
8. Hide from your humans. When your humans come home, don't greet them at the door. Instead, hide from them, and make them think something terrible has happened to you. (Don't reappear until one of your humans is panic-stricken and close to tears).
9. When your human calls you to come back in, always take your time. Walk as slowly as possible back to the door.
10. Wake up twenty minutes before the alarm clock is set to go off and make the humans take you out for your morning pee. As soon as you get back inside, fall asleep.. (Humans can rarely fall back asleep after going outside, this will drive them nuts!

Rules for Non-Pet Owners Who Visit and like toComplain About Our Pets
1. They live here. You don't.
2. If you don't want their hair on your clothes, stayoff the furniture (that's why they call it"fur"niture.)
3. To you, it's an animal. To me, he/she is an adoptedson/daughter who is short, hairy, walks on all foursand doesn't speak clearly. Dogs are better thankids... they eat less, don't ask for money all thetime, are easier to train, usually come when called,never drive your car, don't hang out withdrug-using friends (unless the cat that also liveshere has a cat-nip addiction, but that won't killhim/her). They don't smoke or drink, don'tworry about having to buy the latest fashions, don'twear your clothes, and don't need a gazillion dollarsfor university - and if they get pregnant, you cansell the children.  ¶ 7/14/2005 10:17:00 AM 0 comments

  .... So great has been the endurance, so incredible the achievement, that, as long as the sun keeps a set course in heaven, it would be foolish to despair of the human race.
-- Ernest L. Woodward

If you wish to travel far and fast, travel light. Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears.
-- Glenn Clark

songs:
Annie Lennox - here comes the rain again
Darren Hayes - popular
billie myers - kiss the rain  ¶ 7/14/2005 07:11:00 AM 0 comments

  Gossip according to Krishnamurti....cont'd I think, first of all, we gossip about others because we are not sufficiently interested in the process of our own thinking and of our own action. We want to see what others are doing and perhaps, to put it kindly, to imitate others. Generally, when we gossip it is to condemn others, but, stretching it charitably, it is perhaps to imitate others. Why do we want to imitate others? Doesn't it all indicate an extraordinary shallowness on our own part? It is an extraordinarily dull mind that wants excitement, and goes outside itself to get it. In other words gossip is a form of sensation, isn't it?, in which we indulge. It may be a different kind of sensation, but there is always this desire to find excitement, distraction. If one really goes into this question deeply, one comes back to oneself, which shows that one is really extraordinarily shallow and seeking excitement from outside by talking about others. Catch yourself the next time you are gossiping about somebody; if you are aware of it, it will indicate an awful lot to you about yourself. Don't cover it up by saying that you are merely inquisitive about others. It indicates restlessness, a sense of excitement, a shallowness, a lack of real, profound interest in people which has nothing to do with gossip.

Krishnamurti  ¶ 7/14/2005 04:16:00 AM 0 comments

  Okay, so I failed one....

You Are 44% American

America: You don't love it or want to leave it. But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over. On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead... And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch!

Your Kissing Purity Score: 17% Pure

For you, it's all kiss and no talk. You're in a permanent lip lock.

  ¶ 7/14/2005 04:14:00 AM 0 comments

  I always miss the good stuff   ¶ 7/13/2005 10:18:00 AM 0 comments

  The writings of Krishnamurti

  ¶ 7/13/2005 04:22:00 AM 1 comments

  The joys of Randomness...

You Have A Type B+ Personality

B+ You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

You are a Slutcom 1, also known as the normal level of slutcom. This category is characterized by occasional hook-ups. These hook-ups are with people that could be potential relationship material, though that's not always 100 percent. They also tend to be not overly physical; sex is rare for a slutcom 1 - and generally, isn't much of a concern. Take the slutcom litmus test! The slutcom litmus test originated in A Word of Advice.

NOTE=FOR SOME REASON THIS KEEPS WANTING TO SHOW ME AS STRAIGHT...AND YA'LL KNOW I AIN'T!! SOMETHING IS SCREWED IN THE HTML AND I CAN'T FIND IT....OH WELL. THIS IS JUST FOR FUN ANYWAY.  ¶ 7/13/2005 03:52:00 AM 0 comments

  I agree with the students Student Activists Rally to Fight Ban on Gay Blood Donation
07.11.05 By Ross von Metzke

A number of New England universities, spearheaded by the University of Maine at Orono, have joined forces to protest a more than decade long ban on blood donation by men who have had sex with men.

Students argue that the policy, originally intended to keep HIV positive blood from contaminating the nation's blood supply, implies that gay men are inherently sick and that it prevents healthy people from donating.

For years, gay rights advocates have rallied against the ban, but occasional protests and talks with the Food and Drug Administration, which oversees blood banks, have brought no change.
Now, college students are taking a new approach. Instead of pressuring the FDA directly, they are targeting the American Red Cross, which is the largest and highest-profile blood collector in the United States.

Unlike America's Blood Centers, which represents the non-Red Cross blood banks that collect most of the nation's blood, the Red Cross publicly supports the policy. Activists say that if they can get the Red Cross to change its stance, the FDA will follow.

College students and gay rights advocates contend that the policy is outdated, ineffective and homophobic.

All blood is tested before use, according to the FDA, and enforcement of the policy depends solely on whether potential male donors cop to having had sex with other men on a pre-donation survey. Most important, the activists say, the danger of HIV contamination comes from people who practice unsafe sex, regardless of the donor's sexual orientation.

The new round of protests began in May at the University of Maine at Orono, where the student government banned the Red Cross from conducting blood drives on campus. It opened the campus only to a blood collection company that supported changing the FDA rule.

The disputed policy dates to 1990, when the FDA codified a rule banning blood donations from any man who had had sex with another man since 1977. The policy started as a guideline in 1983, before blood could be tested for HIV. It has remained in place, officials say, because of concern over HIV infection among MSM’s.

The FDA says allowing men in that category to donate would bring so much HIV positive blood into the system that even rare errors could allow infected blood to slip through safeguards. Fourteen million units of blood are donated and processed in the United States every year.

At an FDA hearing in 2000, the last time the agency reviewed its policy, the Red Cross testified in favor of keeping what the industry calls a "lifetime deferral" for men who have had sex with men. The FDA's panel of specialists voted, 7 to 6, to maintain the ban.

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Victory is sweetest when you've known defeat.
-- Malcolm Forbes (1919-1990) American Publisher  ¶ 7/12/2005 01:39:00 PM 0 comments

  Just a quick update... Hey all....

Just wanted to let you know that it is a pain typing with one hand...I probably won't be typing much this week until my finger stops its throbbing. It currently rests in a splint that makes it hard to type. Good thing I have had practice typing one-handed before, huh? Anyway, thought I would let you know so that you don't think that I have disappeared somewhere and decided to not come back.

Take care of yourselves this week...I will talk to ya'll soon!

Muah!!!

Better keep yourself clean and bright; you are the window through which you must see the world.
-- George Bernard Shaw (1856-1950) Irish Playwright

Song of the day: Ryan Cabrera "Illusions"

  ¶ 7/12/2005 10:02:00 AM 0 comments

  Just stuff after a long weekend Where nature is concerned, familiarity breeds love and knowledge, not contempt.

-- Stewart L. Udall (1920- ) American Politician


Perseverance is failing 19 times and succeeding the 20th.

-- J. Andrews

The vision that you glorify in your mind, the ideal that you enthrone in your heart - this you will build your life by, and this you will become.


-- James Lane Allen (1849-1925) American Author

Songs:
Crossfade - Cold
Backstreet Boys - Incomplete
Shawn Colvin - Someone Like You
Ryan Cabrera - On the Way Down
Wax Poetic ft Norah Jones - Angels
Robyn - Always Be Around  ¶ 7/11/2005 04:17:00 AM 0 comments

  Breaking news Explosions rock through London

How much is this a coincidence?????  ¶ 7/07/2005 03:56:00 AM 0 comments

  I'm back... Hey guys,

Hope you had a good 4th of July...things weren't too bad here! Hit the beach a couple of times on Saturday and Sunday, so I have some color. The speedo tan lines are just lovely too. ;-) Did fireworks on Monday, a good distance from the crowd, but close enough to still have good seats. Even managed to get out of downtown within about 30 minutes...which was a shocker in itself.

Anyway, I managed to actually capture some of the fireworks on my phone. The better ones were too bright...was fun actually watching on the phone because it was like a strobe light...and then you had the smoke from the explosions and it was cool. But here ya go...enjoy!








Quotes for the Day
Those who love deeply never grow old; they may die of old age, but they die young.
-- A.W. Pinero

Right actions for the future are the best apologies for wrong ones in the past.
-- Tyron Edwards

Humor is an affirmation of dignity, a declaration of man's superiority to all that befalls him.
-- Romain Gary (1914-1980) French Writer

Men can be stimulated to show off their good qualities to the leader who seems to think they have good qualities.
-- John Richelsen

Songs of the Day
Kelis vs Missy "Misdemeanor" Elliot "Milkshake/Pass the Dutch"
Missy "Misdemeanor" Elliot "Lose Control"
Janet Jackson feat. Elephant Man "Don't Stop"
Anastacia "Love is a Crime"
Kelly Osbourne "One Word"
Britney Spears "Do Something"  ¶ 7/06/2005 10:23:00 AM 1 comments

  One more.... We come into this world crying while all around us people are smiling. May we so live that we go out of this world smiling while everybody around us is weeping.
-- Persian proverb  ¶ 7/01/2005 10:25:00 AM 0 comments

  Just some quick stuff... Hey folks, wishing all a grand July 4th...hopefully you will be off (I know a few aren't).

Personal Fireworks!

No pleasure philosophy, no sensuality, no place nor power, no
material success can for a moment give such inner satisfaction as the
sense of living for good purposes, for maintenance of integrity, for
the preservation of self-approval.

-- Minot Simons

Tribute to our Soldiers


Feel the Power of Tom Cruise  ¶ 7/01/2005 08:05:00 AM 0 comments