Crawl into My Head
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
I am the...
My friend Tim found this and posted it on a Myspace bulletin…I thought I would share it with the rest of the world. These are the voices of the people who could not speak their voices and have to rely on the rest of us to do it for them.
I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transgender woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transgender. (yes, this actually happened...actually, there are tons of reports of this happening)
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the person who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.
I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson" (R.I.P. Matthew Shepard)
I am a boy who sat in my room for three months crying and waiting for my life to end before it even started because gay was taught not to be ok (jb)
I am the guy who hated himself everyday for not being the son his mother wanted, the son his father dreamed of or the man he thought he'd be. (MB)
I am the proud gay man who fought and served in the army, the very same army that does not accept who I really am.
I am the lesbian who dated a lot of men, slept around, got raped multiple times and fought myself because I was told I just hadn't found the right man.(AR)
I am the boy allowed himself to be brought down by drugs and abusive boyfriends because he did not have parents that he could talk to about his life and the lies he was forced to tell. (I*A Archangel)
I am the boy who watched his first true love die from HIV complications and listen to his ex’s parents blame him for the death because they could not face the fact their son did not follow the life they had wanted for him. (I*A Archangel)
The names or initials in the parentheses are the initials or screen names of the people who posted their comments. ¶ 3/29/2006 08:47:00 AM 2 comments
I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transgender woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transgender. (yes, this actually happened...actually, there are tons of reports of this happening)
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the person who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.
I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson" (R.I.P. Matthew Shepard)
I am a boy who sat in my room for three months crying and waiting for my life to end before it even started because gay was taught not to be ok (jb)
I am the guy who hated himself everyday for not being the son his mother wanted, the son his father dreamed of or the man he thought he'd be. (MB)
I am the proud gay man who fought and served in the army, the very same army that does not accept who I really am.
I am the lesbian who dated a lot of men, slept around, got raped multiple times and fought myself because I was told I just hadn't found the right man.(AR)
I am the boy allowed himself to be brought down by drugs and abusive boyfriends because he did not have parents that he could talk to about his life and the lies he was forced to tell. (I*A Archangel)
I am the boy who watched his first true love die from HIV complications and listen to his ex’s parents blame him for the death because they could not face the fact their son did not follow the life they had wanted for him. (I*A Archangel)
The names or initials in the parentheses are the initials or screen names of the people who posted their comments. ¶ 3/29/2006 08:47:00 AM 2 comments
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Two stories worth reading
Red Cross Recommends Lift to Gay Blood Donation Ban
Behavior-Based Blood Donors Deferrals in the Era of Nucleic Acid Testing (NAT)
Perhaps we have some steps in the right direction...it is Time that will tell how things will end up flowing. ¶ 3/23/2006 09:36:00 AM 1 comments
Behavior-Based Blood Donors Deferrals in the Era of Nucleic Acid Testing (NAT)
Perhaps we have some steps in the right direction...it is Time that will tell how things will end up flowing. ¶ 3/23/2006 09:36:00 AM 1 comments
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Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns. I am thankful that thorns have roses.
-- Allophones Karr
¶ 3/23/2006 07:11:00 AM 1 comments
-- Allophones Karr
¶ 3/23/2006 07:11:00 AM 1 comments
Please say you will miss me...
Hey folks. This is my last post for the week…and then I will be back on Tuesday!
Spent half the night last night moving shit into the truck. Many thanks to my good friends that came by to help last night…it is much appreciated. I wanted to get all into the truck that I could, so I ended up sleeping on the air mattress last night. Everything else is packed up except for the small appliances and a couple of lamps. Yay! Of course I have no clue where my contacts are at right now, so I can’t change them in the morning like I had wanted. Oops. Oh well.
I am so not even focused right now. Oh well. Will do what I can today…I spent almost two hours paying bills and changing addresses on items. And trying to figure out what I have left in the account so I know what I need to get and all that jazz. Easy shopping for the rest of the two weeks for me! Amazing how quickly money can go. LOL
Since I will not be around tomorrow, here are the upcoming movie releases for this weekend. Haven’t been paying much attention to the previews lately, so can’t really recommend anything good. So, I am asking for your help. If you see anything that is decent, thought-provoking, or otherwise of interest, drop me a line and let me know! I would love to hear about it.
NATIONWIDE RELEASE
Basic Instinct 2 – Sharon Stone, David Morrissey
Ice Age: The Meltdown – Ray Romano, John Leguizamo, Denis Leary
LIMITED RELEASE
Adam & Steve – Craig Chester, Parker Posey (will this be “just another gay movie”?)
ATL – Clifford Harris, Lauren London, Albert Daniels
Awesome: I F*kin’ Shot That – shot from the audience p.o.v. at a Beastie Boys concert
Drawing Restraint 9 – Matthew Barney, Bjork, Mayumi Miyata
Slither – Nathan Fillion, Elizabeth Banks, Michael Rooker
Swimmers – Tara Devon Gallagher, Shawn Hatosy, Cherry Jones
Songs of the day
Hilary and Hallie Duff – Our Lips Are Sealed
BT – Animals
Wisdom for the weekend
From the Dalai Lama
‘The advantage of relying on a spiritual teacher is that if you have accumulated an action that would project you into a negative state of existence, the result of that could be experienced just in this life in form of minor sufferings or minor problems, or even experiencing the result in a dream and through that way one could destroy the destructive result of negative actions.’
‘The seed for nirvana exists in all of us. The time has come to think more wisely, hasn’t it?’
‘Negative actions have the potential to increase, whereas positive actions can be destroyed by many adverse circumstances.’
‘If one assumes a humble attitude, one’s own good qualities will increase. Whereas if one is proud, one will become jealous of others, one will look down on others, and due to that there will be unhappiness in society.’
Unknown author – ‘To understand everything is to forgive everything.’
Before I sign off, I would like to ask you something. What would you like to hear about from me? I am looking to make this a little more interactive with my readers and friends. I want to know your suggestions, comments…whatever. Let me know what you think. Or, if you just have general feedback, please feel free to express it. Drop me a line and let me know.
And if you have a link to your blog or webpage you would like to see listed, send that to me as well.
In the famous words of Porky Pig…”Th-th-th-that’s all folks!”
….well, for now anyway.
¶ 3/23/2006 04:57:00 AM 1 comments
Spent half the night last night moving shit into the truck. Many thanks to my good friends that came by to help last night…it is much appreciated. I wanted to get all into the truck that I could, so I ended up sleeping on the air mattress last night. Everything else is packed up except for the small appliances and a couple of lamps. Yay! Of course I have no clue where my contacts are at right now, so I can’t change them in the morning like I had wanted. Oops. Oh well.
I am so not even focused right now. Oh well. Will do what I can today…I spent almost two hours paying bills and changing addresses on items. And trying to figure out what I have left in the account so I know what I need to get and all that jazz. Easy shopping for the rest of the two weeks for me! Amazing how quickly money can go. LOL
Since I will not be around tomorrow, here are the upcoming movie releases for this weekend. Haven’t been paying much attention to the previews lately, so can’t really recommend anything good. So, I am asking for your help. If you see anything that is decent, thought-provoking, or otherwise of interest, drop me a line and let me know! I would love to hear about it.
NATIONWIDE RELEASE
Basic Instinct 2 – Sharon Stone, David Morrissey
Ice Age: The Meltdown – Ray Romano, John Leguizamo, Denis Leary
LIMITED RELEASE
Adam & Steve – Craig Chester, Parker Posey (will this be “just another gay movie”?)
ATL – Clifford Harris, Lauren London, Albert Daniels
Awesome: I F*kin’ Shot That – shot from the audience p.o.v. at a Beastie Boys concert
Drawing Restraint 9 – Matthew Barney, Bjork, Mayumi Miyata
Slither – Nathan Fillion, Elizabeth Banks, Michael Rooker
Swimmers – Tara Devon Gallagher, Shawn Hatosy, Cherry Jones
Songs of the day
Hilary and Hallie Duff – Our Lips Are Sealed
BT – Animals
Wisdom for the weekend
From the Dalai Lama
‘The advantage of relying on a spiritual teacher is that if you have accumulated an action that would project you into a negative state of existence, the result of that could be experienced just in this life in form of minor sufferings or minor problems, or even experiencing the result in a dream and through that way one could destroy the destructive result of negative actions.’
‘The seed for nirvana exists in all of us. The time has come to think more wisely, hasn’t it?’
‘Negative actions have the potential to increase, whereas positive actions can be destroyed by many adverse circumstances.’
‘If one assumes a humble attitude, one’s own good qualities will increase. Whereas if one is proud, one will become jealous of others, one will look down on others, and due to that there will be unhappiness in society.’
Unknown author – ‘To understand everything is to forgive everything.’
Before I sign off, I would like to ask you something. What would you like to hear about from me? I am looking to make this a little more interactive with my readers and friends. I want to know your suggestions, comments…whatever. Let me know what you think. Or, if you just have general feedback, please feel free to express it. Drop me a line and let me know.
And if you have a link to your blog or webpage you would like to see listed, send that to me as well.
In the famous words of Porky Pig…”Th-th-th-that’s all folks!”
….well, for now anyway.
¶ 3/23/2006 04:57:00 AM 1 comments
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
The countdown continues...
Only two days left. It has gotten harder for me and the roommate since we have lived together for so long. It was really funny because he came in my room last night and started acting like he was going to put my books back on the shelves…they are all in boxes on the floor right now. I pretty much can’t move around much in my room. But we know that this is something that I need to do for myself, so good luck to me with it all. Tack on the stress of just moving period and I have been having a hell of a time with it all…my stomach hates me right now and I really don’t sleep well. Hopefully that will change once I am fully moved.
“When you take a risk and step out of the norm, you run the risk and sometimes you fail. But you only fail if you give up.” ~ J Peterman
“A dog is not considered a good dog because he is a good barker. A man is not considered a good man because he is a good talker.” ~ Unknown
“Good manners make any man a pleasure to be with. Ask any woman.” ~ Peter Mayle (1939-), British author (okay, I think even guys can be asked if manners make the men they are with…well, the gay ones anyway. Straight guys don’t seem to care most of the time) ¶ 3/22/2006 05:56:00 AM 1 comments
“When you take a risk and step out of the norm, you run the risk and sometimes you fail. But you only fail if you give up.” ~ J Peterman
“A dog is not considered a good dog because he is a good barker. A man is not considered a good man because he is a good talker.” ~ Unknown
“Good manners make any man a pleasure to be with. Ask any woman.” ~ Peter Mayle (1939-), British author (okay, I think even guys can be asked if manners make the men they are with…well, the gay ones anyway. Straight guys don’t seem to care most of the time) ¶ 3/22/2006 05:56:00 AM 1 comments
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Tueday's rambles
Just a little hello on this cold, dreary, rainy Tuesday. Yeah….I did not want to wake up, but I was up early as hell this morning. Go figure. Just leaving a few words of inspiration for my friends…hope all is well with them.
(Question…did anyone watch Scarborough Country last night on MSNBC? He was all up in an uproar regarding the movie V FOR VENDETTA. He considers it an attack on the US and the President by Hollywood. I have not seen the movie, but I did buy the book. I don’t view it as an attack, but more of a warning of what could happen in the future. Just like 1982 and UTOPIA were warnings of possible futures. Does everyone have to view movies on sensitive subjects as attacks on some sort of institution? Is there not something called Freedom of Speech on this country still???)
Words of Wisdom
Just as rust which arose from the iron itself wears out the iron, likewise, performing an action without examination would destroy us by projecting us into a negative state of existence. ~ The Dalai Lama
The way is not in the sky. The way is in the heart. ~ Unknown
Our capacity to draw happiness from aesthetic objects or material goods in fact seems critically dependent on our first satisfying a more important range of emotional or psychological needs, among them the need for understanding, for love, expression and respect. ~ Alain De Botton
You cannot add to the peace and good will of the world if you fail to create an atmosphere of harmony and love right where you live and work. ~ Thomas Dreier
Songs for the morning
Telepopmusik – Breathe
LIV – Journey of Love
And my newest find this morning: Feast of Fools podcast. Check it out... ¶ 3/21/2006 04:24:00 AM 2 comments
(Question…did anyone watch Scarborough Country last night on MSNBC? He was all up in an uproar regarding the movie V FOR VENDETTA. He considers it an attack on the US and the President by Hollywood. I have not seen the movie, but I did buy the book. I don’t view it as an attack, but more of a warning of what could happen in the future. Just like 1982 and UTOPIA were warnings of possible futures. Does everyone have to view movies on sensitive subjects as attacks on some sort of institution? Is there not something called Freedom of Speech on this country still???)
Words of Wisdom
Just as rust which arose from the iron itself wears out the iron, likewise, performing an action without examination would destroy us by projecting us into a negative state of existence. ~ The Dalai Lama
The way is not in the sky. The way is in the heart. ~ Unknown
Our capacity to draw happiness from aesthetic objects or material goods in fact seems critically dependent on our first satisfying a more important range of emotional or psychological needs, among them the need for understanding, for love, expression and respect. ~ Alain De Botton
You cannot add to the peace and good will of the world if you fail to create an atmosphere of harmony and love right where you live and work. ~ Thomas Dreier
Songs for the morning
Telepopmusik – Breathe
LIV – Journey of Love
And my newest find this morning: Feast of Fools podcast. Check it out... ¶ 3/21/2006 04:24:00 AM 2 comments
Monday, March 20, 2006
Morning quickie...yeah, Daddy!!
Just a quickie this morning….those can be the best sometimes, especially when the full moon is sitting there and hormones start to rage and you really need to blow it out.
Anyway…
Started my packing this past weekend…only four/five more days until I am moved into my new place. This should be very interesting. I might be looking for help…I have not received confirmation from folks as to if or when they are helping me. I plan on getting my stuff moved that day so I can have it all set up Friday night and be able to rest over the rest of the weekend. I don’t want to have to get up more than I need to…and hopefully that will pretty much only be for the cable guy. I am a lazy shit sometimes. LOL
Did manage to see some friends and had a good time. Me and Will spent time together on Friday and Sunday…was really nice to just chill out with him. He will definitely be the youngest guy I have talked to in a long time…so we shall see where things go with all of it. Chris called me from Key West. He was bored out of his mind down there not being able to have the fun that he wanted. He is also getting transferred out to Cali around the end of April, beginning of May. That sucks, but I know that is what he wanted for a long time now. And he will most definitely have a blast out there! Wonder if my Cali friends can show him a good time. Saturday night saw me in Jacksonville with Javier drinking with friends and catching The Hills Have Eyes. That isn’t a horror flick…that is one gross movie. I really didn’t flinch through it…it was just more blood than anything else. Don’t think it really could have qualified as a horror flick. Finally got to watch Wrong Turn in its entirety as well…bought it, along with 11 other movies, on Friday night. Yeah…don’t think I need to be buying any more movies anytime soon. Hell…I went to Walmart on Sunday and picked up Replacement Killers too. Yeah…no more shopping! (Of course, that is like telling Paris Hilton that she can’t change her mind on everything she does…just won’t happen.)
So, I apologize ahead of time. This week will probably see things slow down a little bit while I try to get everything wrapped up around the apartment and work in preparations for the move and my being out for a few days. But, know that I will thinking about all my friends and readers out there and at least try to put up a little quote once in awhile for you.
Song for the day
Craig David – World Filled With Love
For Lab Accession B629205 (collected 14SEP2005), please provide signature with date signed. Also, please provide Abnormal Clinically Significant value for HEMATOLOGY: PLATELETS.
Quotes
"You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger."
"Have compassion for all beings, rich and poor alike; each has their suffering. Some suffer too much, others too little."
A Zen master once said to me, "Do the opposite of whatever I tell you." So I didn't.
And from the Dalai Lama
It looks like there is an awful lot of work to do. If you had to analyze all your dreams there would be no time left to dream.
Good motivation causes good action. The beauty of action is in the method, and Buddhahood is the beauty of result. Generally beauty means something positive, but if you are subjectively too attached to it and handle it wrongly, it can lead to destruction. But then I wonder about the definition of beauty. Can you consider the art of killing as beauty, especially painless killing? Of the art of warfare – little expense but a huge amount of destruction? Maybe it is considered as beauty.
Other stuff:
Today is Canberra Day in Australia. What is Canberra Day? Canberra Day is a public holiday observed in the ACT on the third Monday in March to celebrate the founding of Canberra. For more information on Canberra, visit here.
I also would like to welcome Marco to the fold. You can check out his blog here. ¶ 3/20/2006 04:44:00 AM 0 comments
Anyway…
Started my packing this past weekend…only four/five more days until I am moved into my new place. This should be very interesting. I might be looking for help…I have not received confirmation from folks as to if or when they are helping me. I plan on getting my stuff moved that day so I can have it all set up Friday night and be able to rest over the rest of the weekend. I don’t want to have to get up more than I need to…and hopefully that will pretty much only be for the cable guy. I am a lazy shit sometimes. LOL
Did manage to see some friends and had a good time. Me and Will spent time together on Friday and Sunday…was really nice to just chill out with him. He will definitely be the youngest guy I have talked to in a long time…so we shall see where things go with all of it. Chris called me from Key West. He was bored out of his mind down there not being able to have the fun that he wanted. He is also getting transferred out to Cali around the end of April, beginning of May. That sucks, but I know that is what he wanted for a long time now. And he will most definitely have a blast out there! Wonder if my Cali friends can show him a good time. Saturday night saw me in Jacksonville with Javier drinking with friends and catching The Hills Have Eyes. That isn’t a horror flick…that is one gross movie. I really didn’t flinch through it…it was just more blood than anything else. Don’t think it really could have qualified as a horror flick. Finally got to watch Wrong Turn in its entirety as well…bought it, along with 11 other movies, on Friday night. Yeah…don’t think I need to be buying any more movies anytime soon. Hell…I went to Walmart on Sunday and picked up Replacement Killers too. Yeah…no more shopping! (Of course, that is like telling Paris Hilton that she can’t change her mind on everything she does…just won’t happen.)
So, I apologize ahead of time. This week will probably see things slow down a little bit while I try to get everything wrapped up around the apartment and work in preparations for the move and my being out for a few days. But, know that I will thinking about all my friends and readers out there and at least try to put up a little quote once in awhile for you.
Song for the day
Craig David – World Filled With Love
For Lab Accession B629205 (collected 14SEP2005), please provide signature with date signed. Also, please provide Abnormal Clinically Significant value for HEMATOLOGY: PLATELETS.
Quotes
"You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger."
"Have compassion for all beings, rich and poor alike; each has their suffering. Some suffer too much, others too little."
A Zen master once said to me, "Do the opposite of whatever I tell you." So I didn't.
And from the Dalai Lama
It looks like there is an awful lot of work to do. If you had to analyze all your dreams there would be no time left to dream.
Good motivation causes good action. The beauty of action is in the method, and Buddhahood is the beauty of result. Generally beauty means something positive, but if you are subjectively too attached to it and handle it wrongly, it can lead to destruction. But then I wonder about the definition of beauty. Can you consider the art of killing as beauty, especially painless killing? Of the art of warfare – little expense but a huge amount of destruction? Maybe it is considered as beauty.
Other stuff:
Today is Canberra Day in Australia. What is Canberra Day? Canberra Day is a public holiday observed in the ACT on the third Monday in March to celebrate the founding of Canberra. For more information on Canberra, visit here.
I also would like to welcome Marco to the fold. You can check out his blog here. ¶ 3/20/2006 04:44:00 AM 0 comments
Friday, March 17, 2006
Friday notes
Movie Releases
Nationwide
Find Me Guilty - Vin Diesel, Peter Dinklage
She’s the Man - Amanda Bynes, Lynda Boyd, Alex Breckenridge, David Cross
V for Vendetta - Natalie Portman, Stephen Rea, Hugo Weaving, Rupert Graves, Stephen Fry
Limited
Church Ball - Andrew Wilson, Gary Coleman, Sina Amedson
Don’t Trip…He Ain’t Through with Me Yet - Steve Harvey, Rickey Smiley
Duck Season (Temporada de patos) - Enrique Arreola, Daniel Miranda
Summer Storm (Sommersturm) - Robert Stadlober, Kostja Ullmann
Thank You for Smoking - Aaron Eckhart, Robert Duvall, Katie Holmes
V for Vendetta: The IMAX Experience - Natalie Portman, Stephen Rea, Hugo Weaving, Rupert Graves, Stephen Fry
The Zodiac - Justin Chambers, Robin Tunney
Friday has come at last. This means one week is down and I have one left to go before I can relax in the comfort of my own home. Things are getting more tense and found words between me and the roommate. I just feel so detached from things at the moment and that gets scary sometimes. I can’t help when it comes on…it just does. So, I place a front, try not to bite people’s heads off, and pretend that I want to be around others. But, what I really want to do, is crawl away from everyone and not be bothered with any of them at all. But, for the sake of my friends, I have been trying to overcome that a bit. Also had to divert disaster for a couple friends as well, so that took up part of my night.
My mom ingrained this really disturbing habit of buying the book adaptation of a movie and reading it, usually before the movie has come out. I did that recently with V for VENDETTA, managing to finish it in two days. It actually isn’t a bad novel…will be interesting to see how the movie turns out. Basics: it takes place about fifty years in the future, perhaps longer, in Britain. America has fallen from being a world power, now suffering from a Civil War because they over extended themselves and lost to China. The Middle East has been plowed under. Britain is the new super power, but they suffer from “terrorist attacks” in the form of biological weapons. Their government is a new “Nazi” regime of sorts. Dissidents, nonbelievers, non-Christians, non-white Britains, and more are gathered into camps where tests are run on them like they are animals. Fingermen run the streets after curfew, brutally attacking anyone they come across. And only one man has had the courage to stand up to them, fighting from the darkness while running around in a Guy Fawkes mask. He rescues a girl and frees her from her own fear, allowing her to stand up for herself now. I won’t say how the story ends….just watch the movie, or read the book, for yourself.
Have a great weekend! I will see you back here on Monday.
Words of Wisdom
Whether in remote places or densely populated cities we work and struggle for the same fundamental purpose. While doing so, we fail to realize that it is important to follow the correct method in achieving our goal – for the method is all-important. ~ The Dalai Lama
"I gained nothing at all from Supreme Enlightenment, and for that very reason it is called Supreme Enlightenment." ~ Gotama Buddha
Laughter is the sun that drives winter from the human face. ~ Anonymous
Artist of the Day
Natasha Bedingfield: Stumble; The One That Got Away ¶ 3/17/2006 04:03:00 AM 0 comments
Nationwide
Find Me Guilty - Vin Diesel, Peter Dinklage
She’s the Man - Amanda Bynes, Lynda Boyd, Alex Breckenridge, David Cross
V for Vendetta - Natalie Portman, Stephen Rea, Hugo Weaving, Rupert Graves, Stephen Fry
Limited
Church Ball - Andrew Wilson, Gary Coleman, Sina Amedson
Don’t Trip…He Ain’t Through with Me Yet - Steve Harvey, Rickey Smiley
Duck Season (Temporada de patos) - Enrique Arreola, Daniel Miranda
Summer Storm (Sommersturm) - Robert Stadlober, Kostja Ullmann
Thank You for Smoking - Aaron Eckhart, Robert Duvall, Katie Holmes
V for Vendetta: The IMAX Experience - Natalie Portman, Stephen Rea, Hugo Weaving, Rupert Graves, Stephen Fry
The Zodiac - Justin Chambers, Robin Tunney
Friday has come at last. This means one week is down and I have one left to go before I can relax in the comfort of my own home. Things are getting more tense and found words between me and the roommate. I just feel so detached from things at the moment and that gets scary sometimes. I can’t help when it comes on…it just does. So, I place a front, try not to bite people’s heads off, and pretend that I want to be around others. But, what I really want to do, is crawl away from everyone and not be bothered with any of them at all. But, for the sake of my friends, I have been trying to overcome that a bit. Also had to divert disaster for a couple friends as well, so that took up part of my night.
My mom ingrained this really disturbing habit of buying the book adaptation of a movie and reading it, usually before the movie has come out. I did that recently with V for VENDETTA, managing to finish it in two days. It actually isn’t a bad novel…will be interesting to see how the movie turns out. Basics: it takes place about fifty years in the future, perhaps longer, in Britain. America has fallen from being a world power, now suffering from a Civil War because they over extended themselves and lost to China. The Middle East has been plowed under. Britain is the new super power, but they suffer from “terrorist attacks” in the form of biological weapons. Their government is a new “Nazi” regime of sorts. Dissidents, nonbelievers, non-Christians, non-white Britains, and more are gathered into camps where tests are run on them like they are animals. Fingermen run the streets after curfew, brutally attacking anyone they come across. And only one man has had the courage to stand up to them, fighting from the darkness while running around in a Guy Fawkes mask. He rescues a girl and frees her from her own fear, allowing her to stand up for herself now. I won’t say how the story ends….just watch the movie, or read the book, for yourself.
Have a great weekend! I will see you back here on Monday.
Words of Wisdom
Whether in remote places or densely populated cities we work and struggle for the same fundamental purpose. While doing so, we fail to realize that it is important to follow the correct method in achieving our goal – for the method is all-important. ~ The Dalai Lama
"I gained nothing at all from Supreme Enlightenment, and for that very reason it is called Supreme Enlightenment." ~ Gotama Buddha
Laughter is the sun that drives winter from the human face. ~ Anonymous
Artist of the Day
Natasha Bedingfield: Stumble; The One That Got Away ¶ 3/17/2006 04:03:00 AM 0 comments
Thursday, March 16, 2006
IMPORTANT!!!
Fight To Give Life
Found this while I was looking around on Connexion....definitely something that I think we all should get involved in. It is not fair that gay men are not allowed to give blood without having to lie on the forms. Take a stand...sign up and be heard! ¶ 3/16/2006 11:04:00 AM 1 comments
Fight To Give LifeFound this while I was looking around on Connexion....definitely something that I think we all should get involved in. It is not fair that gay men are not allowed to give blood without having to lie on the forms. Take a stand...sign up and be heard! ¶ 3/16/2006 11:04:00 AM 1 comments
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To think bad thoughts is really the easiest thing in the world. If you leave your mind to itself it will spiral down into ever increasing unhappiness. To think good thoughts, however, requires effort. This is one of the things that discipline - training - is about.
-- James Clavell, in his novel "Shogun"
¶ 3/16/2006 04:49:00 AM 0 comments
-- James Clavell, in his novel "Shogun"
¶ 3/16/2006 04:49:00 AM 0 comments
A quickie
"The only people who believe that samsara and nirvana are the same are those that haven't meditated enough." ~Ajahn Chah
Wherever you are, your religious teaching must be there with you. ~ The Dalai Lama
Not much to actually report this morning….it was a slow night. Although, the apartment complex pissed me off by leaving a last minute note in our door that all furniture that was on the patio/balcony had to be off of it because they were doing maintenance. Okay…and they didn’t inform us sooner was why? Sometimes I really don’t get them. What if we had been out of town for the entire time they were doing on the building? (In this case they are supposed to be working through Sunday….yeah; the apartment is going to be full since I am also packing this weekend)
Have a great day…tomorrow is Friday! ¶ 3/16/2006 04:47:00 AM 0 comments
Wherever you are, your religious teaching must be there with you. ~ The Dalai Lama
Not much to actually report this morning….it was a slow night. Although, the apartment complex pissed me off by leaving a last minute note in our door that all furniture that was on the patio/balcony had to be off of it because they were doing maintenance. Okay…and they didn’t inform us sooner was why? Sometimes I really don’t get them. What if we had been out of town for the entire time they were doing on the building? (In this case they are supposed to be working through Sunday….yeah; the apartment is going to be full since I am also packing this weekend)
Have a great day…tomorrow is Friday! ¶ 3/16/2006 04:47:00 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Hump Day - give me a Fcuk!
Hmm…Hump Day already. Where the hell is the week going??? It doesn’t feel like I have actually done anything all week. Last night was interesting…I guess. Saw Will after I got done at Wes’s…damn is that fucker hot! (Will, I mean) I shocked myself with the level of restraint I have managed to obtain over the years…I didn’t jump his bones! Seems like we both were trying to behave. Apparently I was the topic of discussion last night after I left his place…his roommate had been in the kitchen the entire time working on his outfit for his next drag show. I definitely want to see Will again…maybe tonight will see me over there again. And the cool part? He lives right down the street from where I will be at. Hmmm……wonder where the thoughts could go on that. LOL (Behave, Aiden…behave)
So I have listened to Amber’s newest CD, My Kind of World. Most interesting, I should say. Wes seemed to get a little upset when I threw out the extra copy last night, but I knew that he wouldn’t like it. She has some dance stuff in there, but this is album is closer to her heart. With songs like Crucified Solitude, Sacrificial Lamb, Private War and City of Pain, you have to wonder what it was exactly she was thinking. Fortunately, I like most of her works, and there are quite a few songs on there that I enjoy. It seems that she has been trying to expand outside the dance arena for a few years now, and I definitely can see it growing on me.
A DJ of note that I recommend checking out is Manny Lehman, the Latino from the Bronx. He spins for the Freedom Party up in NYC. What is that you ask? Freedom Party NYC is a celebratory Gay Pride weekend event to honor the accomplishments of the GLBT community in their continuing battle for life, liberty and equality. Proceeds benefit the HIV Law Project, a non-profit organization that provides services to persons afflicted with HIV and AIDS. (excerpted from their website) Of course, you know that anything dealing with helping those with HIV/AIDS is a big deal to me. No need to clarify further on any of that! But, back to Manny. I picked up both his BANGING’02 and FREEDOM albums. FREEDOM was released last year, featuring Kristine W, Sun, Rhythm Divine, Solar City and Deborah Cooper. If you buy BANGIN’02 and think that you will be able to listen to it at work, guess again. The software used to create it makes it nearly impossible to listen to on a computer and some of the older stereos. But, I definitely recommend his works. They will definitely keep you dancing in your car or home (make those Sunday chore days go by a lot faster!)
Oh, and don’t worry…I know that I have promised a few blogs but have slacked off. I was hoping to be able to work on them while I was out for my birthday, but, of course, that didn’t happen. I promise I will get them up soon….hopefully by the end of the month. I am taking a few days off for my move to the new apartment, so hopefully there will be a little free time in there to get working on the things that sees me three months behind.
Words of Wisdom
When you have fear, you can think: “Others have fear similar to this; may I take to myself all of their fears.” Even though you are opening yourself to greater suffering, taking greater hardship on yourself, your fear lessens. ~ The Dalai Lama
"I'm astounded by people who want to 'know' the universe when it's hard enough to find your way around Chinatown." ~ Woody Allen
Song of the Day
Kristine W – The Wonder of It All (Offer Nissim Remix) ~Freedom, Manny Lehman
Amber – More Time For a Child ~My Kind of World ¶ 3/15/2006 04:22:00 AM 1 comments
Hmm…Hump Day already. Where the hell is the week going??? It doesn’t feel like I have actually done anything all week. Last night was interesting…I guess. Saw Will after I got done at Wes’s…damn is that fucker hot! (Will, I mean) I shocked myself with the level of restraint I have managed to obtain over the years…I didn’t jump his bones! Seems like we both were trying to behave. Apparently I was the topic of discussion last night after I left his place…his roommate had been in the kitchen the entire time working on his outfit for his next drag show. I definitely want to see Will again…maybe tonight will see me over there again. And the cool part? He lives right down the street from where I will be at. Hmmm……wonder where the thoughts could go on that. LOL (Behave, Aiden…behave)So I have listened to Amber’s newest CD, My Kind of World. Most interesting, I should say. Wes seemed to get a little upset when I threw out the extra copy last night, but I knew that he wouldn’t like it. She has some dance stuff in there, but this is album is closer to her heart. With songs like Crucified Solitude, Sacrificial Lamb, Private War and City of Pain, you have to wonder what it was exactly she was thinking. Fortunately, I like most of her works, and there are quite a few songs on there that I enjoy. It seems that she has been trying to expand outside the dance arena for a few years now, and I definitely can see it growing on me.
A DJ of note that I recommend checking out is Manny Lehman, the Latino from the Bronx. He spins for the Freedom Party up in NYC. What is that you ask? Freedom Party NYC is a celebratory Gay Pride weekend event to honor the accomplishments of the GLBT community in their continuing battle for life, liberty and equality. Proceeds benefit the HIV Law Project, a non-profit organization that provides services to persons afflicted with HIV and AIDS. (excerpted from their website) Of course, you know that anything dealing with helping those with HIV/AIDS is a big deal to me. No need to clarify further on any of that! But, back to Manny. I picked up both his BANGING’02 and FREEDOM albums. FREEDOM was released last year, featuring Kristine W, Sun, Rhythm Divine, Solar City and Deborah Cooper. If you buy BANGIN’02 and think that you will be able to listen to it at work, guess again. The software used to create it makes it nearly impossible to listen to on a computer and some of the older stereos. But, I definitely recommend his works. They will definitely keep you dancing in your car or home (make those Sunday chore days go by a lot faster!)
Oh, and don’t worry…I know that I have promised a few blogs but have slacked off. I was hoping to be able to work on them while I was out for my birthday, but, of course, that didn’t happen. I promise I will get them up soon….hopefully by the end of the month. I am taking a few days off for my move to the new apartment, so hopefully there will be a little free time in there to get working on the things that sees me three months behind.
Words of Wisdom
When you have fear, you can think: “Others have fear similar to this; may I take to myself all of their fears.” Even though you are opening yourself to greater suffering, taking greater hardship on yourself, your fear lessens. ~ The Dalai Lama
"I'm astounded by people who want to 'know' the universe when it's hard enough to find your way around Chinatown." ~ Woody Allen
Song of the Day
Kristine W – The Wonder of It All (Offer Nissim Remix) ~Freedom, Manny Lehman
Amber – More Time For a Child ~My Kind of World ¶ 3/15/2006 04:22:00 AM 1 comments
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Tuesday Update
PISCES
Caring. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. Extremely weird but in a good way
LIBRA
Very gentle. Nice. Love is one of a kind. Silly and fun! Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! AMAZING in Bed.!!!!!
CAPRICORN
Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Tends to be a little shy and lame in bed.
AQUARIUS
Trustworthy. Sexy. Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Extremly energetic. Amazing in bed, the BEST lovers.
ARIES
Outgoing. Spontanious. No one to fukk with. Have own unique sexiness. Unpredictable. Erotic. Funny. Addictive. Take you on trips to the moon in bed.
TAURUS
Aggressive. freak in bed. rare to find. loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremly outgoing. Outstanding kisser. sexual as fuck.
LEO
Great talker. Always the life of the party. Sexy. Horny all the time. Attractive physically or mentally (somtimes both) Can be Laid back or Wild. Knows how to have fun. Tends to be bisexual Is really good at anal. Great kisser.
VIRGO
Dominant in relationships.Sexy.Always Horny.Freak in bed. Always wants the last word.Loud.Caring.Smart.Loves being in long relationships.Addictive, Can be a bit vain
SCORPIO
sexy. Talkative. Energetic, slut at times, Most erotic.Freak in bed.Good kisser. not one to mess with. always get what they want.
SAGITTARIUS
Reserved, Loyal, High sex appeal. Rare to find, So keep them when you find them, Good when found. Loves being in long relationships, kissing, and romantic
GEMINI
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed. Lover not a Fighter But Can Still Punch Your Lights Out .Trustworthy, Likes Porn
Happy Tuesday. There is officially ten days left until I sign the lease for my new apartment. But who is counting? I know that I am not. LOL (Yeah, I couldn’t even keep a straight face on that one) The excitement builds, the tension grows stronger, and we all wonder how the sanity is kept everywhere.
So I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday regarding military boys and how I find them hot. He said that he had tried to talked to a Marine (actually, I think he used the term ‘jarhead’) and the kid just about ran away screaming. (Hmm…that is an image) I, on the other hand, was on the dance floor with the hottie from the strip show contest (oh…can I say that he found me on Myspace! I will have to admit I was actually a bit excited). Every time I have gone, I seem to be able to talk with the Marine and Navy boys that are down visiting…and I did the same with the Army kids that showed up in Raleigh in my older days. I have had flings/dated several military guys…and loved every minute of it. I have to wonder if that is because I feel so comfortable around them from my childhood. My dad works civilian for the government and used to work at West Point and Stewart Air Base in New York proper. I used to hang out on the base with him, always watched the recruits, and have signatures from a couple somewhere. Was that a sign of things to come? I don’t know. Either way, I seem to be building a good group of friends, and not just from the military. I do have others…and I make more every day. Now, if only I could get that group in Wilmington. LOL
I think I am going to actually be lazy when it comes to my car and let someone else wash and detail it for me. Normally I am pretty good about that, but right now I don’t feel like playing with it. So, here goes for Cruisers Car Wash and letting the hot boys there clean ‘er out!
And, when you get a chance, check out Ethan's page over at Brat Boy School. He has been making advancements with the school, now providing a student directory. My name over there? AiDeN1981, of course. Looking forward to meeting you!
Words of Wisdom
I believe that the very purpose of our life is to seek happiness. That is clear. Whether one believes in religion or not, whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we all are seeking something better in life. So, I think, the very motion of our life is towards happiness. ~ The Dalai Lama
Today’s Jewish Holiday
Purim - one of the most joyous and fun holidays on the Jewish calendar. It commemorates a time when the Jewish people living in Persia were saved from extermination.
Song of the Day
The Digital Superstars – Alright (MK & Dr Mix)
Kristine W – Fly Again
Club News
¶ 3/14/2006 04:23:00 AM 1 comments
Caring. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. Extremely weird but in a good way
LIBRA
Very gentle. Nice. Love is one of a kind. Silly and fun! Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! AMAZING in Bed.!!!!!
CAPRICORN
Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Tends to be a little shy and lame in bed.
AQUARIUS
Trustworthy. Sexy. Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Extremly energetic. Amazing in bed, the BEST lovers.
ARIES
Outgoing. Spontanious. No one to fukk with. Have own unique sexiness. Unpredictable. Erotic. Funny. Addictive. Take you on trips to the moon in bed.
TAURUS
Aggressive. freak in bed. rare to find. loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremly outgoing. Outstanding kisser. sexual as fuck.
LEO
Great talker. Always the life of the party. Sexy. Horny all the time. Attractive physically or mentally (somtimes both) Can be Laid back or Wild. Knows how to have fun. Tends to be bisexual Is really good at anal. Great kisser.
VIRGO
Dominant in relationships.Sexy.Always Horny.Freak in bed. Always wants the last word.Loud.Caring.Smart.Loves being in long relationships.Addictive, Can be a bit vain
SCORPIO
sexy. Talkative. Energetic, slut at times, Most erotic.Freak in bed.Good kisser. not one to mess with. always get what they want.
SAGITTARIUS
Reserved, Loyal, High sex appeal. Rare to find, So keep them when you find them, Good when found. Loves being in long relationships, kissing, and romantic
GEMINI
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed. Lover not a Fighter But Can Still Punch Your Lights Out .Trustworthy, Likes Porn
Happy Tuesday. There is officially ten days left until I sign the lease for my new apartment. But who is counting? I know that I am not. LOL (Yeah, I couldn’t even keep a straight face on that one) The excitement builds, the tension grows stronger, and we all wonder how the sanity is kept everywhere.
So I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday regarding military boys and how I find them hot. He said that he had tried to talked to a Marine (actually, I think he used the term ‘jarhead’) and the kid just about ran away screaming. (Hmm…that is an image) I, on the other hand, was on the dance floor with the hottie from the strip show contest (oh…can I say that he found me on Myspace! I will have to admit I was actually a bit excited). Every time I have gone, I seem to be able to talk with the Marine and Navy boys that are down visiting…and I did the same with the Army kids that showed up in Raleigh in my older days. I have had flings/dated several military guys…and loved every minute of it. I have to wonder if that is because I feel so comfortable around them from my childhood. My dad works civilian for the government and used to work at West Point and Stewart Air Base in New York proper. I used to hang out on the base with him, always watched the recruits, and have signatures from a couple somewhere. Was that a sign of things to come? I don’t know. Either way, I seem to be building a good group of friends, and not just from the military. I do have others…and I make more every day. Now, if only I could get that group in Wilmington. LOL
I think I am going to actually be lazy when it comes to my car and let someone else wash and detail it for me. Normally I am pretty good about that, but right now I don’t feel like playing with it. So, here goes for Cruisers Car Wash and letting the hot boys there clean ‘er out!
And, when you get a chance, check out Ethan's page over at Brat Boy School. He has been making advancements with the school, now providing a student directory. My name over there? AiDeN1981, of course. Looking forward to meeting you!
Words of Wisdom
I believe that the very purpose of our life is to seek happiness. That is clear. Whether one believes in religion or not, whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we all are seeking something better in life. So, I think, the very motion of our life is towards happiness. ~ The Dalai Lama
Today’s Jewish Holiday
Purim - one of the most joyous and fun holidays on the Jewish calendar. It commemorates a time when the Jewish people living in Persia were saved from extermination.
Song of the Day
The Digital Superstars – Alright (MK & Dr Mix)
Kristine W – Fly Again
Club News
¶ 3/14/2006 04:23:00 AM 1 comments
Monday, March 13, 2006
Mondays come again...
Hey folks. Monday has come yet again and I wonder sometimes why I get up in the mornings. LOL This morning saw me at work for about an hour before having to head to an off-site company meeting that nearly put me to sleep. That was so enjoyable. (Not really) I didn’t want to get up this morning…I managed to actually get a full night sleep last night because I was so exhausted from the weekend.
Yes, boys, your eyes were not deceiving you Saturday night. You did see me in all my half-naked glory on the dance floor over at Ibiza. I figured I needed a night out of fun and decided to hit the club. Glad I did because I had a blast! Ran into a few old friends, made some new ones, and nearly shriveled and the sight and touch of another. But, I made it through the night, dancing with a really hot Marine that my roommate had met a few weeks back. We spent pretty much the entire night together, and then headed back up to Surf City where him and a few buds were crashing at a friend’s house. Went to bed around 530 or 6 after QAF ended. And, no, none of THAT happened. The most we did was make out on the dance floor at the club…we just held each other as we slept. He was still passed out when I left to come home…so I slipped my number in his bag with his wallet. So, we shall see if I get any phone calls. He is getting ready to get deployed south for a few weeks, but that is cool. I know that he has a blast with clubbing…he was all over that dance floor and on the stage. He even went up in the strip contest. If the other Marine didn’t have all his buddies at the club with him, he would have one. C’est le vie.
Saturday night, and Sunday alone at TGI-Friday’s made me realize how much I need to get back out and network again. I had gone through my phone Sunday night to see who I could call to go out to dinner at 8pm (Will was already out with his friends) and realized I have roughly ten people from Wilmington in my phone. Everyone else is either Raleigh, Jacksonville, or out-of-state! That is bad. Once I get fully settled in my new place, I think that I will have to reneg on my “rare club appearance” policy and start hitting it up a couple times a month. Get out, meet people, have a great time, and see what happens from there. I miss my old days in Raleigh and all the friends I had there…met them all pretty much at the club and we would hang out, have dinner or catch a movie several times during the week. So, new life….here I be a’comin’! It is time to get this hot bachelor out there again! (Okay, so I don’t feel like being humble today…sue me!)
Other than that, nothing truly spectacular happened over the weekend. Just on count down now until I sign the lease and get moved to my new place. I aim to move it all over that Friday and plan on not going to bed until I am fully set up. If that means ordering a pizza, popping a bottle of wine or getting some other alcohol, and setting up a movie on the TV (and maybe a few friends to help out), then so be it! I want that place fully functional so I can sleep in a bit on Saturday morning…while I wait for the cable guy to come and set up my digital cable! Time to get all set!
Words of Wisdom
If you have fear of some pain or suffering, you should examine whether there is anything you can do about it. If you can, there is no need to worry about it; if you cannot do anything, then also there is no need to worry. ~ The Dalai Lama
Underlying all Western modes of analysis is a very strong rationalistic tendency - an assumption that everything can be accounted for. ~ The Dalai Lama (how true is that!)
"Prayers take the character of private communications, selfish bargaining with God. It seeks for objects of earthly ambitions and inflames the sense of self. Meditation on the other hand is self-change." -- Sri Radhakrishnan
The great end of art is to strike the imagination with the power of a soul that refuses to admit defeat even in the midst of a collapsing world. ~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Courage does not always roar. Sometimes, it is the quiet voice at the
end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow". ~ Anonymous
Song of the day
Amber - Just Like That
Oh…and my newest piece of art……… ¶ 3/13/2006 08:34:00 AM 0 comments
Yes, boys, your eyes were not deceiving you Saturday night. You did see me in all my half-naked glory on the dance floor over at Ibiza. I figured I needed a night out of fun and decided to hit the club. Glad I did because I had a blast! Ran into a few old friends, made some new ones, and nearly shriveled and the sight and touch of another. But, I made it through the night, dancing with a really hot Marine that my roommate had met a few weeks back. We spent pretty much the entire night together, and then headed back up to Surf City where him and a few buds were crashing at a friend’s house. Went to bed around 530 or 6 after QAF ended. And, no, none of THAT happened. The most we did was make out on the dance floor at the club…we just held each other as we slept. He was still passed out when I left to come home…so I slipped my number in his bag with his wallet. So, we shall see if I get any phone calls. He is getting ready to get deployed south for a few weeks, but that is cool. I know that he has a blast with clubbing…he was all over that dance floor and on the stage. He even went up in the strip contest. If the other Marine didn’t have all his buddies at the club with him, he would have one. C’est le vie.Saturday night, and Sunday alone at TGI-Friday’s made me realize how much I need to get back out and network again. I had gone through my phone Sunday night to see who I could call to go out to dinner at 8pm (Will was already out with his friends) and realized I have roughly ten people from Wilmington in my phone. Everyone else is either Raleigh, Jacksonville, or out-of-state! That is bad. Once I get fully settled in my new place, I think that I will have to reneg on my “rare club appearance” policy and start hitting it up a couple times a month. Get out, meet people, have a great time, and see what happens from there. I miss my old days in Raleigh and all the friends I had there…met them all pretty much at the club and we would hang out, have dinner or catch a movie several times during the week. So, new life….here I be a’comin’! It is time to get this hot bachelor out there again! (Okay, so I don’t feel like being humble today…sue me!)
Other than that, nothing truly spectacular happened over the weekend. Just on count down now until I sign the lease and get moved to my new place. I aim to move it all over that Friday and plan on not going to bed until I am fully set up. If that means ordering a pizza, popping a bottle of wine or getting some other alcohol, and setting up a movie on the TV (and maybe a few friends to help out), then so be it! I want that place fully functional so I can sleep in a bit on Saturday morning…while I wait for the cable guy to come and set up my digital cable! Time to get all set!
Words of Wisdom
If you have fear of some pain or suffering, you should examine whether there is anything you can do about it. If you can, there is no need to worry about it; if you cannot do anything, then also there is no need to worry. ~ The Dalai Lama
Underlying all Western modes of analysis is a very strong rationalistic tendency - an assumption that everything can be accounted for. ~ The Dalai Lama (how true is that!)
"Prayers take the character of private communications, selfish bargaining with God. It seeks for objects of earthly ambitions and inflames the sense of self. Meditation on the other hand is self-change." -- Sri Radhakrishnan
The great end of art is to strike the imagination with the power of a soul that refuses to admit defeat even in the midst of a collapsing world. ~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Courage does not always roar. Sometimes, it is the quiet voice at the
end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow". ~ Anonymous
Song of the day
Amber - Just Like That
Oh…and my newest piece of art……… ¶ 3/13/2006 08:34:00 AM 0 comments
Friday, March 10, 2006
Thanks, Todd!
I know that we have all seen this at one point or another, but my friend Todd sent this to me (and about a million other people) in his little way of making a point (whether or not he means to is always up for question).
I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit plae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.
Amzanig huh?
Just a simple reminder that we cant get wrapped up in details, but instead must focus on the big picture and the end goal...cool, huh.
And the funny part? We all probably sound like this when we get drunk or high! Apparently Miami's population was suffering from a "mis-speaking syndrome" over the past weekend. ¶ 3/10/2006 05:28:00 AM 2 comments
I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit plae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.
Amzanig huh?
Just a simple reminder that we cant get wrapped up in details, but instead must focus on the big picture and the end goal...cool, huh.
And the funny part? We all probably sound like this when we get drunk or high! Apparently Miami's population was suffering from a "mis-speaking syndrome" over the past weekend. ¶ 3/10/2006 05:28:00 AM 2 comments
TGIF
Hooray for Friday!!!!!!! I am so glad that it is the weekend…and it puts me fourteen days from signing my lease too! I can’t wait.
Okay, so they gave us our bonus checks today. Excitement there. For once I am following my friend, the devil’s advocate, and holding onto the money for after the move. Hell…that is a new fish tank and stand from what I just saw. The only thing I am not liking at the moment is that they took out 40% in taxes! Granted it is for the last year, but damn! Give a brotha a little bit of money! Kinda a good thing I am following Mr. Devil’s Advocate…that doesn’t give me enough to get a computer anyway! *sad face here*
Here are your weekly movie releases. Movies of possible note are going to be asterisked from now on…and if you see them I want to know how they were!!!
Nationwide Release
*Failure to Launch – Matthew McConaughey (he started a topic at work regarding tea-bagging one day), Sarah Jessica Parker
*The Hills Have Eyes – Aaron Stanford, Ted Levine, Dan Byrd (a lot of no-names here it seems; although I thought I recognized someone in the trailers)
**The Libertine – Johnny Depp, John Malkovich, Rosamund Pike
The Shaggy Dog – Tim Allen, Kristin Davis, Jane Curtin
Limited Release
Ask the Dust – Colin Farrell (tea-bag me baby!), Selma Hayek, Donald Sutherland
The Hidden Blade – Masatoshi Nagase, Takako Matsu
Looks like Johnny Depp will be doing pretty well this year. I think The Libertine will be one of his more darker, serious performances, so I am definitely interested in seeing how this turns out. Tim Allen, on the other hand, needs to hang it up. His day has ended and he is trying to milk whatever he has left in these Disney remakes. Hey Tim! Retire already knowing that you had a great run with Home Improvement!!! (Sorry, couldn’t help myself there)
Words for Wisdom
Through money or power you cannot solve all problems. The problem in the human heart must be solved first. – The Dalai Lama
However much we may pray to the Buddha we cannot be saved. The Buddha does not grant favors to those who pray to him. Instead of petitional prayers there is meditation that leads to self-control, purification and enlightenment. Meditation is neither a silent reverie nor keeping the mind blank. It is an active striving. It serves as a tonic both to the heart and the mind. The Buddha not only speaks of the futility of offering prayers but also disparages a slave mentality. A Buddhist should not pray to be saved, but should rely on himself and win his freedom.
Songs of the morning
End of the Earth – Sun
Be Without You - Mary J. Blige ¶ 3/10/2006 04:23:00 AM 1 comments
Okay, so they gave us our bonus checks today. Excitement there. For once I am following my friend, the devil’s advocate, and holding onto the money for after the move. Hell…that is a new fish tank and stand from what I just saw. The only thing I am not liking at the moment is that they took out 40% in taxes! Granted it is for the last year, but damn! Give a brotha a little bit of money! Kinda a good thing I am following Mr. Devil’s Advocate…that doesn’t give me enough to get a computer anyway! *sad face here*
Here are your weekly movie releases. Movies of possible note are going to be asterisked from now on…and if you see them I want to know how they were!!!
Nationwide Release
*Failure to Launch – Matthew McConaughey (he started a topic at work regarding tea-bagging one day), Sarah Jessica Parker
*The Hills Have Eyes – Aaron Stanford, Ted Levine, Dan Byrd (a lot of no-names here it seems; although I thought I recognized someone in the trailers)
**The Libertine – Johnny Depp, John Malkovich, Rosamund Pike
The Shaggy Dog – Tim Allen, Kristin Davis, Jane Curtin
Limited Release
Ask the Dust – Colin Farrell (tea-bag me baby!), Selma Hayek, Donald Sutherland
The Hidden Blade – Masatoshi Nagase, Takako Matsu
Looks like Johnny Depp will be doing pretty well this year. I think The Libertine will be one of his more darker, serious performances, so I am definitely interested in seeing how this turns out. Tim Allen, on the other hand, needs to hang it up. His day has ended and he is trying to milk whatever he has left in these Disney remakes. Hey Tim! Retire already knowing that you had a great run with Home Improvement!!! (Sorry, couldn’t help myself there)
Words for Wisdom
Through money or power you cannot solve all problems. The problem in the human heart must be solved first. – The Dalai Lama
However much we may pray to the Buddha we cannot be saved. The Buddha does not grant favors to those who pray to him. Instead of petitional prayers there is meditation that leads to self-control, purification and enlightenment. Meditation is neither a silent reverie nor keeping the mind blank. It is an active striving. It serves as a tonic both to the heart and the mind. The Buddha not only speaks of the futility of offering prayers but also disparages a slave mentality. A Buddhist should not pray to be saved, but should rely on himself and win his freedom.
Songs of the morning
End of the Earth – Sun
Be Without You - Mary J. Blige ¶ 3/10/2006 04:23:00 AM 1 comments
Thursday, March 09, 2006
The week is almost over..can it be?
I can’t believe that it is already Thursday!! This week has gone by way too fast, although I do look forward to the weekend. Not as much rest as last weekend, I think, but possibly a definite chance to chill out. And the possible inclusion of a computer to my possession, too. Will have to wait and see, first.
Yesterday turned out pretty good for me, which was good. I had my one-on-one with my boss and discussed my merit increase and bonus check (bonus coming this weekend!), plus seeing if there is a way that I might be able to work a four day week. If I can do that, then I will be really happy because that will free up my weekend some, plus allow me to assist at my friend’s office for a full day instead of the few hours that I do at night. I think maybe then I can be of a little more assistance. Plus, I can spend a little more focus on my extracurricular activities. And, if I go back to school, that frees up a fully day that I can take classes. My boss isn’t too sure how well our manager up in Raleigh will like the idea…we are thinking that it got shot down one time before…but it doesn’t hurt to ask. So, I guess we shall cross our fingers and hope to see. I am also waiting on IT to decide if they will give me a flat screen monitor to free up space on my desk. I had gone through an ergonomics assessment for it, but the guy was a complete prick and we ended up fighting about things. Plus, he didn’t come up with that idea on his own like he should have. He kept saying that I needed a keyboard tray, but that actually hurts my wrists more, plus I am continually hitting my knees on the tray. Either way, I still have to stretch to get to my desk, and I prefer having my keyboard up on the desk. Might not be the best idea, but it is the most comfortable, and it allows me easy access to the paperwork I have/need.
Went to Best Buy last night to pick up the fourth Harry Potter movie. I had never seen it in the theatres…go figure. That was actually the first one I hadn’t seen in the theatre. Ended up looking around and found the other HP movies were $8.99 each, or two for $20. Buying them that way was actually cheaper than buying the 8-disc set they had for $60. But I will hold off on watching those right now. Instead, watched HOWL’S MOVING CASTLE from Miyazaki. Yeah, that was the same fella who created SPIRITED AWAY, Best Animated Feature Film at the 75th Annual Academy Awards. There was more humour in this film, but I tend to find something in all of his works that has a humourous side to it. The best part is that his more calm animated feature films are being released in the US in conjunction with Walt Disney. He does have a couple from Studio Ghibli that are not released through Disney; PRINCESS MONONOKE being one of them. But I recommend all of them. And, if you have access to Cartoon Network, you are able to catch the first four of his works. Starting on March 18th, Cartoon Network will be starting a “Month of Miyazaki” around 730pm. I think SPIRITED AWAY is going to be the first film they are featuring, but don’t quote me on that.
Okay…best get back to work. I was later than my usual arrival time because I did not want to get out of bed, but I have been surprisingly productive this morning…very shocking.
Words of Wisdom
Given human beings’ love of truth, justice, peace, and freedom, creating a better, more compassionate world is a genuine possibility. The potential is there. ~ Dalai Lama
"I see nothing more grand in this world than the image of the Buddha. It is an absolutely perfect embodiment of spirituality in the visible domain." ~ Count Kevserling ¶ 3/09/2006 06:21:00 AM 0 comments
I can’t believe that it is already Thursday!! This week has gone by way too fast, although I do look forward to the weekend. Not as much rest as last weekend, I think, but possibly a definite chance to chill out. And the possible inclusion of a computer to my possession, too. Will have to wait and see, first.Yesterday turned out pretty good for me, which was good. I had my one-on-one with my boss and discussed my merit increase and bonus check (bonus coming this weekend!), plus seeing if there is a way that I might be able to work a four day week. If I can do that, then I will be really happy because that will free up my weekend some, plus allow me to assist at my friend’s office for a full day instead of the few hours that I do at night. I think maybe then I can be of a little more assistance. Plus, I can spend a little more focus on my extracurricular activities. And, if I go back to school, that frees up a fully day that I can take classes. My boss isn’t too sure how well our manager up in Raleigh will like the idea…we are thinking that it got shot down one time before…but it doesn’t hurt to ask. So, I guess we shall cross our fingers and hope to see. I am also waiting on IT to decide if they will give me a flat screen monitor to free up space on my desk. I had gone through an ergonomics assessment for it, but the guy was a complete prick and we ended up fighting about things. Plus, he didn’t come up with that idea on his own like he should have. He kept saying that I needed a keyboard tray, but that actually hurts my wrists more, plus I am continually hitting my knees on the tray. Either way, I still have to stretch to get to my desk, and I prefer having my keyboard up on the desk. Might not be the best idea, but it is the most comfortable, and it allows me easy access to the paperwork I have/need.
Went to Best Buy last night to pick up the fourth Harry Potter movie. I had never seen it in the theatres…go figure. That was actually the first one I hadn’t seen in the theatre. Ended up looking around and found the other HP movies were $8.99 each, or two for $20. Buying them that way was actually cheaper than buying the 8-disc set they had for $60. But I will hold off on watching those right now. Instead, watched HOWL’S MOVING CASTLE from Miyazaki. Yeah, that was the same fella who created SPIRITED AWAY, Best Animated Feature Film at the 75th Annual Academy Awards. There was more humour in this film, but I tend to find something in all of his works that has a humourous side to it. The best part is that his more calm animated feature films are being released in the US in conjunction with Walt Disney. He does have a couple from Studio Ghibli that are not released through Disney; PRINCESS MONONOKE being one of them. But I recommend all of them. And, if you have access to Cartoon Network, you are able to catch the first four of his works. Starting on March 18th, Cartoon Network will be starting a “Month of Miyazaki” around 730pm. I think SPIRITED AWAY is going to be the first film they are featuring, but don’t quote me on that.Okay…best get back to work. I was later than my usual arrival time because I did not want to get out of bed, but I have been surprisingly productive this morning…very shocking.
Words of Wisdom
Given human beings’ love of truth, justice, peace, and freedom, creating a better, more compassionate world is a genuine possibility. The potential is there. ~ Dalai Lama
"I see nothing more grand in this world than the image of the Buddha. It is an absolutely perfect embodiment of spirituality in the visible domain." ~ Count Kevserling ¶ 3/09/2006 06:21:00 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Don't shoot me please! I know I be late!
I know; I am late with the posting this morning. Sorry. Things are actually picking up more for work, so I am keeping a little busier than normal. So bear with me a bit…things might slow a bit, but I will try to keep up with everything!
Had a couple of cool things sent to me this morning that I thought I would share. The first is a little story from a friend who works with the police department. I know that it didn’t happen to him, but I know that someone out there has done it and I would love to meet the fool.
From Stun gun ....... ONLY A GUY WOULD DO THIS.
Pocket Taser Stun Gun, a great gift for the wife. This was submitted by a guy who purchased his lovely wife a "pocket Taser" for their anniversary.
Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 22nd anniversary and I was looking fora little something extra for my wife Toni. What I came across was a100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were suppose to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety.... WAY TOO COOL!
Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded two triple-a batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! Iwas disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arch of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs. Awesome!!! Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Toni what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave.
Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking to myself that it couldn't be all that bad with only two triple-a batteries.. right?!!! There I sat in my recliner, my cat Gracie looking on intently (trusting little soul) while I was reading the directions and thinking that I really needed to try this thing out on a flesh & blood moving target. I must admit I thought about zapping Gracie (for a fraction of a second) and thought better of it. She is such a sweet cat. But, if I was going to give this thing to my wife to protect herself against a mugger, I did want some assurance that it would work as advertised. Am I wrong?
So, there I sat in a pair of shorts and a tank top with my reading glasses perched delicately on the bridge of my nose, directions in one hand, taser in another. The directions said that a one-second burst would shock and disorient your assailant; a two-second burst was supposed to cause muscle spasms and a major loss of bodily control; a three-second burst would purportedly make your assailant flop on the ground like a fish out of water. Any burst longer than three seconds would be wasting the batteries.
All the while I'm looking at this little device measuring about 5" long, less than 3/4 inch in circumference; pretty cute really and loaded with two itsy, bitsy triple-a batteries thinking to myself, "no possible way!"
What happened next is almost beyond description, but I'll do my best.....I'm sitting there alone, Gracie looking on with her head cocked to one side as to say, "don't do it master," reasoning that a one-second burst from such a tiny little ole thing couldn't hurt all that bad.. I decided to give myself a one-second burst just for the heck of it. I touched the prongs to my naked thigh, pushed the button, and HOLY MOTHER, WEAPONS OFMASS DESTRUCTION
I'm pretty sure Jessie Ventura ran in through the side door, picked me up in the recliner, then body slammed us both on the carpet, over and over and over again. I vaguely recall waking up on my side in the fetal position, with tears in my eyes, body soaking wet, chest on fire,testicles nowhere to be found, with my left arm tucked under my body in the oddest position, and tingling in my legs. The cat was standing over me making meowing sounds I had never heard before, licking my face, undoubtedly thinking to herself, "do it again, do it again!"
Note: If you ever feel compelled to "mug" yourself with a taser, one note of caution: there is no such thing as a one-second burst when you zap yourself. You will not let go of that thing until it is dislodged from your hand by a violent thrashing about on the floor. A three secondburst would be considered conservative.
SON-OF-A-... that hurt like hell!!! A minute or so later (I can't be sure, as time was a relative thing at that point), collected my wits(what little I had left), sat up and surveyed the landscape. My bent reading glasses were on the mantel of the fireplace. How did they up get there??? My triceps, right thigh and both nipples were still twitching. My face felt like it had been shot up with Novocain, and my bottom lip weighed 88 lbs. I'm still looking for my testicles. I'm offering a significant reward for their safe return.
Still in shock,Tommy
Second piece was pretty good too….its for all of you who wonder why you are tired and stressed all the time with work.
Why I Am Tired!
For a couple years I've been blaming it on lack of sleep, not enough sunshine, too much pressure from my job, earwax build-up, poor blood pressure or anything else I could think of. But now I found out the real reason: I'm tired because I'm overworked.
Here's why:
The population of this country is 273 million.
140 million are retired.
That leaves 133 million to do the work.
There are 85 million in school.
Which leaves 48 million to do the work.
Of this there are 29 million employed by the federal government.
Leaving 19 million to do the work.
2.8 million are in the armed forces preoccupied with fighting the AlQaeda.
Which leaves 16.2 million to do the work.
Take from the total the 14.8 million people who work for state government.
And that leaves 1.4 million to do the work.
At any given time there are 188,000 people in hospitals.
Leaving 1,212,000 to do the work.
Now, there are 1,211,998 people in prisons.
That leaves just two people to do the work.
You and me.
And there you are sitting on your ass, at your computer, reading jokes.
Nice, real nice!!!
The last is just for hoots and hollas. There is a website out there for if you really get bored and want to know what was the #1 song when you were born. Me? Dolly Parton’s “9-5”. How funny is that? I spend all my time doing 9-5!
Words of Wisdom
Time passes unhindered. When we make mistakes, we cannot turn the clock back and try again. All we can do is use the present well. ~ Dalai Lama
Buddhists do not worship an image expecting worldly or spiritual favors, but pay their reverence to what it represents. An understanding Buddhist, in offering flowers and incense to an image, designedly makes himself feel that he is in the presence of the living Buddha and thereby gains inspiration from his noble personality and breathes deep his boundless compassion. He tries to follow the Buddha's noble example.
Songs of the Day
Alicia Keys/Tony!Toni!Tone! ~ Diary (Hani remix)
Dave McCullem ~ B*tch
Debbie Loeb ~ Far Away (Mixshow Remix)
Mynt ~ Still Not Sorry (Mr Sam vocal mix)mix) ¶ 3/08/2006 10:41:00 AM 1 comments
Had a couple of cool things sent to me this morning that I thought I would share. The first is a little story from a friend who works with the police department. I know that it didn’t happen to him, but I know that someone out there has done it and I would love to meet the fool.
From Stun gun ....... ONLY A GUY WOULD DO THIS.
Pocket Taser Stun Gun, a great gift for the wife. This was submitted by a guy who purchased his lovely wife a "pocket Taser" for their anniversary.
Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 22nd anniversary and I was looking fora little something extra for my wife Toni. What I came across was a100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were suppose to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety.... WAY TOO COOL!
Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded two triple-a batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! Iwas disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arch of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs. Awesome!!! Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Toni what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave.
Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking to myself that it couldn't be all that bad with only two triple-a batteries.. right?!!! There I sat in my recliner, my cat Gracie looking on intently (trusting little soul) while I was reading the directions and thinking that I really needed to try this thing out on a flesh & blood moving target. I must admit I thought about zapping Gracie (for a fraction of a second) and thought better of it. She is such a sweet cat. But, if I was going to give this thing to my wife to protect herself against a mugger, I did want some assurance that it would work as advertised. Am I wrong?
So, there I sat in a pair of shorts and a tank top with my reading glasses perched delicately on the bridge of my nose, directions in one hand, taser in another. The directions said that a one-second burst would shock and disorient your assailant; a two-second burst was supposed to cause muscle spasms and a major loss of bodily control; a three-second burst would purportedly make your assailant flop on the ground like a fish out of water. Any burst longer than three seconds would be wasting the batteries.
All the while I'm looking at this little device measuring about 5" long, less than 3/4 inch in circumference; pretty cute really and loaded with two itsy, bitsy triple-a batteries thinking to myself, "no possible way!"
What happened next is almost beyond description, but I'll do my best.....I'm sitting there alone, Gracie looking on with her head cocked to one side as to say, "don't do it master," reasoning that a one-second burst from such a tiny little ole thing couldn't hurt all that bad.. I decided to give myself a one-second burst just for the heck of it. I touched the prongs to my naked thigh, pushed the button, and HOLY MOTHER, WEAPONS OFMASS DESTRUCTION
I'm pretty sure Jessie Ventura ran in through the side door, picked me up in the recliner, then body slammed us both on the carpet, over and over and over again. I vaguely recall waking up on my side in the fetal position, with tears in my eyes, body soaking wet, chest on fire,testicles nowhere to be found, with my left arm tucked under my body in the oddest position, and tingling in my legs. The cat was standing over me making meowing sounds I had never heard before, licking my face, undoubtedly thinking to herself, "do it again, do it again!"
Note: If you ever feel compelled to "mug" yourself with a taser, one note of caution: there is no such thing as a one-second burst when you zap yourself. You will not let go of that thing until it is dislodged from your hand by a violent thrashing about on the floor. A three secondburst would be considered conservative.
SON-OF-A-... that hurt like hell!!! A minute or so later (I can't be sure, as time was a relative thing at that point), collected my wits(what little I had left), sat up and surveyed the landscape. My bent reading glasses were on the mantel of the fireplace. How did they up get there??? My triceps, right thigh and both nipples were still twitching. My face felt like it had been shot up with Novocain, and my bottom lip weighed 88 lbs. I'm still looking for my testicles. I'm offering a significant reward for their safe return.
Still in shock,Tommy
Second piece was pretty good too….its for all of you who wonder why you are tired and stressed all the time with work.
Why I Am Tired!
For a couple years I've been blaming it on lack of sleep, not enough sunshine, too much pressure from my job, earwax build-up, poor blood pressure or anything else I could think of. But now I found out the real reason: I'm tired because I'm overworked.
Here's why:
The population of this country is 273 million.
140 million are retired.
That leaves 133 million to do the work.
There are 85 million in school.
Which leaves 48 million to do the work.
Of this there are 29 million employed by the federal government.
Leaving 19 million to do the work.
2.8 million are in the armed forces preoccupied with fighting the AlQaeda.
Which leaves 16.2 million to do the work.
Take from the total the 14.8 million people who work for state government.
And that leaves 1.4 million to do the work.
At any given time there are 188,000 people in hospitals.
Leaving 1,212,000 to do the work.
Now, there are 1,211,998 people in prisons.
That leaves just two people to do the work.
You and me.
And there you are sitting on your ass, at your computer, reading jokes.
Nice, real nice!!!
The last is just for hoots and hollas. There is a website out there for if you really get bored and want to know what was the #1 song when you were born. Me? Dolly Parton’s “9-5”. How funny is that? I spend all my time doing 9-5!
Words of Wisdom
Time passes unhindered. When we make mistakes, we cannot turn the clock back and try again. All we can do is use the present well. ~ Dalai Lama
Buddhists do not worship an image expecting worldly or spiritual favors, but pay their reverence to what it represents. An understanding Buddhist, in offering flowers and incense to an image, designedly makes himself feel that he is in the presence of the living Buddha and thereby gains inspiration from his noble personality and breathes deep his boundless compassion. He tries to follow the Buddha's noble example.
Songs of the Day
Alicia Keys/Tony!Toni!Tone! ~ Diary (Hani remix)
Dave McCullem ~ B*tch
Debbie Loeb ~ Far Away (Mixshow Remix)
Mynt ~ Still Not Sorry (Mr Sam vocal mix)mix) ¶ 3/08/2006 10:41:00 AM 1 comments
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Because I have Blue Eyes and was born in February
Okay, so I try to usually stay away from general posts, but a friend had sent this around on Myspace and I actually have recognized a lot of characteristics that are very true in me and my friends. So take my blue eyes and the month of February, and you have a very accurate description of me.
blue eyes---------- people with blue eyes are very attractive, adorable, loves to make new friends. will do anything for that special person. kind, and polite. can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. loves to please the one they care for or love
brown eyes------- people with brown eyes last the longest in relationships. they are very satisfying and love to please and can EXCEED your pleasure standards.
green eyes---------- people with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, they have long lasting relationships.
hazel eyes------------ people with hazel eyes have the best long loving relationships. they're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY challenge. ____________________________________________
----------JANUARY-------------------
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
----------FEBRUARY--------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
-----------------MARCH--------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
------------------APRIL-------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. hott but has brains.
-----------------MAY-----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.
------------JUNE-------------
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
----------------JULY--------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
------------AUGUST---------------
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
------------SEPTEMBER---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
---------------OCTOBER-------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
---------------NOVEMBER--------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
---------------DECEMBER---------------
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. ¶ 3/07/2006 09:37:00 AM 1 comments
blue eyes---------- people with blue eyes are very attractive, adorable, loves to make new friends. will do anything for that special person. kind, and polite. can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. loves to please the one they care for or lovebrown eyes------- people with brown eyes last the longest in relationships. they are very satisfying and love to please and can EXCEED your pleasure standards.
green eyes---------- people with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, they have long lasting relationships.
hazel eyes------------ people with hazel eyes have the best long loving relationships. they're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY challenge. ____________________________________________
----------JANUARY-------------------
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
----------FEBRUARY--------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
-----------------MARCH--------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
------------------APRIL-------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. hott but has brains.
-----------------MAY-----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.
------------JUNE-------------
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
----------------JULY--------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
------------AUGUST---------------
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
------------SEPTEMBER---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
---------------OCTOBER-------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
---------------NOVEMBER--------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
---------------DECEMBER---------------
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. ¶ 3/07/2006 09:37:00 AM 1 comments
Yin and Yang
Tuesday is here and I have only 17 more days until I sign the lease for my new place. I can’t wait! But my biggest thing is that I need to actually put together a list of everything that I need for the new place. I always hated that part about moving; especially now that I have no one bringing anything into the house! House-warming gifts anyone? LOL I have actually slept an almost full night the last couple of nights…although that is more because I have not been sleeping too much as of late, and wearing myself out in every means possible. Well, almost every means. I can take a lot in certain areas.
Can anyone explain to me why a dentist will not pull a tooth out, but insists that I see an oral surgeon? When I was younger they had no problem pulling them!
New CDs of Recommendation:
Lasgo – Far Away
The Riddler Presents Club Anthems 3
Ministry of Sound – The Annual 2006
Manny Lehman – Freedom
Words of Wisdom:
Knowledge is important, but much more important is the use toward which it is put. This depends on the heart and mind of the one who uses it. ~ Dalai Lama
A Buddhist does not seek refuge in the Buddha with the hope that he will be saved by his (i.e. the Buddha's own) personal purification. The Buddha gives no such guarantee. It is not within the power of a Buddha to wash away the impurities of others. One could neither purify nor defile another. The Buddha, as teacher, instructs us, but we ourselves are directly responsible for our purification. Although a Buddhist seeks refuge in the Buddha, he does not make any self-surrender. Nor does a Buddhist sacrifice his freedom of thought by becoming a follower of the Buddha. He can exercise his own free will and develop his knowledge even to the extent of becoming a Buddha himself.
And the other thing of joy for me lately is that I have relocated a soul brother…the tiger yang to my dragon/panther yin. Life should definitely be more interesting. ¶ 3/07/2006 05:41:00 AM 1 comments
Can anyone explain to me why a dentist will not pull a tooth out, but insists that I see an oral surgeon? When I was younger they had no problem pulling them!
New CDs of Recommendation:
Lasgo – Far Away
The Riddler Presents Club Anthems 3
Ministry of Sound – The Annual 2006
Manny Lehman – Freedom
Words of Wisdom:
Knowledge is important, but much more important is the use toward which it is put. This depends on the heart and mind of the one who uses it. ~ Dalai Lama
A Buddhist does not seek refuge in the Buddha with the hope that he will be saved by his (i.e. the Buddha's own) personal purification. The Buddha gives no such guarantee. It is not within the power of a Buddha to wash away the impurities of others. One could neither purify nor defile another. The Buddha, as teacher, instructs us, but we ourselves are directly responsible for our purification. Although a Buddhist seeks refuge in the Buddha, he does not make any self-surrender. Nor does a Buddhist sacrifice his freedom of thought by becoming a follower of the Buddha. He can exercise his own free will and develop his knowledge even to the extent of becoming a Buddha himself.And the other thing of joy for me lately is that I have relocated a soul brother…the tiger yang to my dragon/panther yin. Life should definitely be more interesting. ¶ 3/07/2006 05:41:00 AM 1 comments
Monday, March 06, 2006
A good one
In work, the greatest satisfaction lies - the satisfaction of stretching yourself, using your abilities and making them expand, and knowing that you have accomplished something that could have been done only by your unique apparatus. This is really the center of life, and those who never orient themselves in this direction are missing more than they ever know. ~Kenneth Alsop (1920-1973)*Now, if I can only tame my ADD some and actually focus on my work!*
¶ 3/06/2006 08:10:00 AM 0 comments
Monday again?!
Not much exciting happened over the weekend. Caught Ultraviolet while Matt had his friend down from Chapel Hill. There were parts of the movie that could have used some improvement, but, otherwise, it was pretty good. Hung out with friends the rest of the weekend, so tried to stay outta trouble the rest of the time. Wasn’t too hard. And then I decided to visit Best Buy on Sunday; picked up DJ Escape’s third album. Got home, unwrapped it, and found no CD in the damn case! I have to go back tonight to see if they will replace or order me a new one. I was not very happy in the least bit. I have only had that happen one other time and that was with the Resident Evil DVD. Spent half the night last night talking with my friend Ryan who is living down here now. This should definitely be more interesting.
As far as the emotional state I have been in the last week, I think I will be okay. I didn’t really get too jealous over the weekend, and didn’t think too much when a friend told me that they didn’t think that someone wasn’t where he said that he was. That kinda shocked me, but I will just have to see how things go. So, I sit at work, as usual, and listen to Lasgo’s new CD. The video for “Surrender” is pretty good. You can catch it on her website.
WORDS OF WISDOM
I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand.
~ Confucius (Chinese Philosopher) 551-479 B.C.
If in the midst of your enjoyment of the world you have a moment, try to help in however small a way those who are downtrodden and those who, for whatever reason, cannot or do not help themselves. Try not to turn away form those whose appearance is disturbing, from the ragged and unwell. Try never to think of them as inferior to yourself. If you can, try not even to think of yourself as better than the humblest beggar. You will look the same in your grave. ~ Dalai Lama
¶ 3/06/2006 04:39:00 AM 1 comments
As far as the emotional state I have been in the last week, I think I will be okay. I didn’t really get too jealous over the weekend, and didn’t think too much when a friend told me that they didn’t think that someone wasn’t where he said that he was. That kinda shocked me, but I will just have to see how things go. So, I sit at work, as usual, and listen to Lasgo’s new CD. The video for “Surrender” is pretty good. You can catch it on her website.
WORDS OF WISDOM
I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand.
~ Confucius (Chinese Philosopher) 551-479 B.C.
If in the midst of your enjoyment of the world you have a moment, try to help in however small a way those who are downtrodden and those who, for whatever reason, cannot or do not help themselves. Try not to turn away form those whose appearance is disturbing, from the ragged and unwell. Try never to think of them as inferior to yourself. If you can, try not even to think of yourself as better than the humblest beggar. You will look the same in your grave. ~ Dalai Lama
¶ 3/06/2006 04:39:00 AM 1 comments
Friday, March 03, 2006
Words from Booker T.
There are two ways of exerting one's strength: one is pushing down, the other is pulling up.
-- Booker T. Washington
Which is the best one for you to follow? I know that I am trying to push up…I like to be able to stand on my own and then ask for help if I really need it. That is how I have made it this far in life, and I think it has made me a better person for it. ¶ 3/03/2006 07:35:00 AM 0 comments
-- Booker T. Washington
Which is the best one for you to follow? I know that I am trying to push up…I like to be able to stand on my own and then ask for help if I really need it. That is how I have made it this far in life, and I think it has made me a better person for it. ¶ 3/03/2006 07:35:00 AM 0 comments
Has the week really ended?
Hey folks….
I am being very quiet this Friday…didn’t sleep very much last night, so still feeling very tired. Plus with the extra issues going on in life, I don’t feel very talkative. But, I still have your weekly movie release so enjoy.
Wide Release
16 Blocks ~ Bruce Willis, Mos Def
Aquamarine ~ JoJo, Emma Roberts, Jake McDorman
Dave Chappelle’s Block Party ~ Dave Chappelle, Kanye West, Erykah Badu
Ultraviolet ~ Milla Jovovich, Cameron Bright
Limited Release
Deep Sea 3-D ~ Johnny Depp, Kate Winslet
Game 6 ~ Michael Keaton, Robert Downey Jr.
National Lampoon’s Pucked ~ Jon Bon Jovi, Estella Warren
The only movies that I really think might be worth investigation are 16 Blocks and Ultraviolet. Block Party might provide a laugh or two, but I always had a hard time getting into Dave Chappelle. Maybe I will go check out Madea and get some laughs. Right now I could use a good laugh, a hard fcuk, and a stiffy.
Words of Wisdom
Rely on the teaching, not on the person;
Rely on the meaning, not on the words;
Rely on the definitive meaning, not on the provisional;
Rely on your wisdom mind, not on your ordinary mind.
~The Buddha
We all get report cards in many different ways, but the real excitement of what you're doing is in the doing of it. It's not what you're gonna get in the end - it's not the final curtain - it's really in the doing it, and loving what I'm doing. ~Designer Ralph Lauren
When a problem first arises, try to remain humble and maintain a sincere attitude, and be concerned that the outcome is fair. ~ The Dalai Lama
Artist: Natasha Bedingfield
Song: “Single”, “Silent Movie”, “Stumble”
Album: Unwritten
I had seen this before, but never actually saw the picture to go with it.
¶ 3/03/2006 04:10:00 AM 2 comments
I am being very quiet this Friday…didn’t sleep very much last night, so still feeling very tired. Plus with the extra issues going on in life, I don’t feel very talkative. But, I still have your weekly movie release so enjoy.
Wide Release
16 Blocks ~ Bruce Willis, Mos Def
Aquamarine ~ JoJo, Emma Roberts, Jake McDorman
Dave Chappelle’s Block Party ~ Dave Chappelle, Kanye West, Erykah Badu
Ultraviolet ~ Milla Jovovich, Cameron Bright
Limited Release
Deep Sea 3-D ~ Johnny Depp, Kate Winslet
Game 6 ~ Michael Keaton, Robert Downey Jr.
National Lampoon’s Pucked ~ Jon Bon Jovi, Estella Warren
The only movies that I really think might be worth investigation are 16 Blocks and Ultraviolet. Block Party might provide a laugh or two, but I always had a hard time getting into Dave Chappelle. Maybe I will go check out Madea and get some laughs. Right now I could use a good laugh, a hard fcuk, and a stiffy.
Words of Wisdom
Rely on the teaching, not on the person;
Rely on the meaning, not on the words;
Rely on the definitive meaning, not on the provisional;
Rely on your wisdom mind, not on your ordinary mind.
~The Buddha
We all get report cards in many different ways, but the real excitement of what you're doing is in the doing of it. It's not what you're gonna get in the end - it's not the final curtain - it's really in the doing it, and loving what I'm doing. ~Designer Ralph Lauren
When a problem first arises, try to remain humble and maintain a sincere attitude, and be concerned that the outcome is fair. ~ The Dalai Lama
Artist: Natasha Bedingfield
Song: “Single”, “Silent Movie”, “Stumble”
Album: Unwritten
I had seen this before, but never actually saw the picture to go with it.
¶ 3/03/2006 04:10:00 AM 2 comments
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Near the end of the week
I was forced to do a little thinking yesterday while working…sad to say I don’t focus fully on my tasks whenever I am at work. My mind tends to wander everywhere, and that is not always a good thing (I do get my work done with excellent results, though!). But I have had to face my current situation, and have had a few friends give me their tidbits of advice too.
After a long email from my friend and the reminders of what we have, I have to try to keep that in mind. We really do have a lot of good things going on between us, and he wants to see the best come out of life for me. I guess I really can’t ask for more than that from someone who really does care. My friend James in New York told me yesterday that sometimes it isn’t meant to work out at that time. I know that from personal experience, and I have settled into a good friendship with a guy that I know back in Winston-Salem, NC. Doesn’t mean that I have to like that with my current situation, but that is probably the best thing for me. Take what I have and appreciate it for what it is; stop pushing for more.
I am just scared more than anything else, I think, to get back into the dating pool with the other fish. I have been single for two years…I don’t know how to get back out there and start circulating again. And there is another obstacle I haven’t figured out how to get around yet. I don’t do the clubs or bars very often, and I am hardly ever online. I might stereotype on this, but a lot of the gay community is focused in those areas. I don’t have many friends around here…most of them are in different cities. But, being the strong person that I am, I know that I can do it; I just need the patience for it all. Not my best suit, I think, but I can learn. I know that the feelings I have now are not being wasted completely; they are appreciated greatly. It is just the wrong timing for things. And if the timing doesn’t work out to the way I would like, then that is a part of life. But, I can’t hold my life up waiting and wishing. How does that saying go? “Shit in one hand and wish in the other and see which fills up first”?
So, while my jealous side might not fully appreciate some actions that are taken, I know that I definitely have a friend for life, and one that fully cares about what makes me happy and content. That is the most I can ask from one person. The bonds I create I like to think will last the test of time…I know that the current one has lasted through a lot of stress in the last year and half or so. I love him for that and so much more.
So, grab a glass and join me in the toast to life and things that are yet to come.
Songs of the day:
Natalie Bedingfield ~ Unwritten
From the cast of RENT ~ Love Heals
Lee Cabrera ~ I Watch You
Kaci ~ I Will Learn to Love Again
Reina ~ If I Close My Eyes
Wisdom to think by:
One day a young Buddhist on his journey home, came to the banks of a wide river. Staring hopelessly at the great obstacle in front of him, he pondered for hours on just how to cross such a wide barrier. Just as he was about to give up his pursuit to continue his journey he saw a great teacher on the other side of the river. The young Buddhist yells over to the teacher, "Oh wise one, can you tell me how to get to the other side of this river?" The teacher ponders for a moment looks up and down the river and yells back, "My son, you are on the other side."
"You should respect other religions...the essence of all religions is basically the same: to achieve a true sense of brotherhood, a good heart, respect for others. If we can develop these qualities from within our heart, then I think we can actually achieve true peace." ~ Dalai Lama ¶ 3/02/2006 05:10:00 AM 0 comments
I was forced to do a little thinking yesterday while working…sad to say I don’t focus fully on my tasks whenever I am at work. My mind tends to wander everywhere, and that is not always a good thing (I do get my work done with excellent results, though!). But I have had to face my current situation, and have had a few friends give me their tidbits of advice too.
After a long email from my friend and the reminders of what we have, I have to try to keep that in mind. We really do have a lot of good things going on between us, and he wants to see the best come out of life for me. I guess I really can’t ask for more than that from someone who really does care. My friend James in New York told me yesterday that sometimes it isn’t meant to work out at that time. I know that from personal experience, and I have settled into a good friendship with a guy that I know back in Winston-Salem, NC. Doesn’t mean that I have to like that with my current situation, but that is probably the best thing for me. Take what I have and appreciate it for what it is; stop pushing for more.
I am just scared more than anything else, I think, to get back into the dating pool with the other fish. I have been single for two years…I don’t know how to get back out there and start circulating again. And there is another obstacle I haven’t figured out how to get around yet. I don’t do the clubs or bars very often, and I am hardly ever online. I might stereotype on this, but a lot of the gay community is focused in those areas. I don’t have many friends around here…most of them are in different cities. But, being the strong person that I am, I know that I can do it; I just need the patience for it all. Not my best suit, I think, but I can learn. I know that the feelings I have now are not being wasted completely; they are appreciated greatly. It is just the wrong timing for things. And if the timing doesn’t work out to the way I would like, then that is a part of life. But, I can’t hold my life up waiting and wishing. How does that saying go? “Shit in one hand and wish in the other and see which fills up first”?
So, while my jealous side might not fully appreciate some actions that are taken, I know that I definitely have a friend for life, and one that fully cares about what makes me happy and content. That is the most I can ask from one person. The bonds I create I like to think will last the test of time…I know that the current one has lasted through a lot of stress in the last year and half or so. I love him for that and so much more.
So, grab a glass and join me in the toast to life and things that are yet to come.
Songs of the day:
Natalie Bedingfield ~ Unwritten
From the cast of RENT ~ Love Heals
Lee Cabrera ~ I Watch You
Kaci ~ I Will Learn to Love Again
Reina ~ If I Close My Eyes
Wisdom to think by:
One day a young Buddhist on his journey home, came to the banks of a wide river. Staring hopelessly at the great obstacle in front of him, he pondered for hours on just how to cross such a wide barrier. Just as he was about to give up his pursuit to continue his journey he saw a great teacher on the other side of the river. The young Buddhist yells over to the teacher, "Oh wise one, can you tell me how to get to the other side of this river?" The teacher ponders for a moment looks up and down the river and yells back, "My son, you are on the other side."
"You should respect other religions...the essence of all religions is basically the same: to achieve a true sense of brotherhood, a good heart, respect for others. If we can develop these qualities from within our heart, then I think we can actually achieve true peace." ~ Dalai Lama ¶ 3/02/2006 05:10:00 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Midweek Blues
Another Wednesday is upon us and I wonder why the week seems to want to move so slowly. I had yet another discussion with a close friend last night and broke down too. Things are not going easy; my emotions don’t want to be shut down at all. I am trying to keep some sort of semblance of control, but I don’t seem to be able to handle it as well as I do with anything else. Is it because I haven’t fallen this hard for anyone else in seven years? I don’t know. My emotions are telling me to push for what I want and desire, and making me look over the good things that I have now. I need to try to listen to my head with things, and to him, and not keep going for what I can’t have right now. Not easy, but patience is going to be an extreme virtue, for both of us. And I feel really bad because I yelled at him and hurt him. That is something I never want to do again. And the funny part? I had sat there and picked up a relationship book from Barnes and Noble yesterday.
Words of Wisdom on Ash Wednesday or St. David’s Day (UK)
If our love for someone is based largely on attraction, whether it be their looks or some other superficial characteristic, our feelings for that person are liable, over time, to evaporate. When they lose the quality we found alluring, the situation can change completely, this despite their being the same person. This is why intimate relationships based purely on attraction are almost always unstable. ~Dalai Lama
I wish that I could say that what I have felt and allowed to grow again is based strictly on attraction. But I know that it runs a lot deeper than that; and that, I think, is why I have such a hard time with things now. I keep trying to remind myself that I just need to go one day at a time and retract a little, but each day sees something completely different happen. Why can’t I be as logic-based as most people out there? I hate how I get at times, but, at the same time, I don’t think that I could trade myself for being any other way. I know one of these days I will get what I fully deserve and desire. Just to flow through life like water and be moldable like my birth element always has been.
On brighter news, only 23 days left until I sign the lease and experience the joys of having my own place.
¶ 3/01/2006 06:33:00 AM 1 comments
Words of Wisdom on Ash Wednesday or St. David’s Day (UK)
If our love for someone is based largely on attraction, whether it be their looks or some other superficial characteristic, our feelings for that person are liable, over time, to evaporate. When they lose the quality we found alluring, the situation can change completely, this despite their being the same person. This is why intimate relationships based purely on attraction are almost always unstable. ~Dalai Lama
I wish that I could say that what I have felt and allowed to grow again is based strictly on attraction. But I know that it runs a lot deeper than that; and that, I think, is why I have such a hard time with things now. I keep trying to remind myself that I just need to go one day at a time and retract a little, but each day sees something completely different happen. Why can’t I be as logic-based as most people out there? I hate how I get at times, but, at the same time, I don’t think that I could trade myself for being any other way. I know one of these days I will get what I fully deserve and desire. Just to flow through life like water and be moldable like my birth element always has been.
On brighter news, only 23 days left until I sign the lease and experience the joys of having my own place.
¶ 3/01/2006 06:33:00 AM 1 comments
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