Crawl into My Head
Thursday, March 31, 2005
She's dead!!!
Yahoo!!! Terri Schiavo is finally dead. Can we celebrate that this is going to be out of the news now? Damn that shit was blown up beyond proportions and made so political. The darling President (and I use darling extremely loosely) only had to say "Today millions of Americans are saddened by the death of Terri Schiavo. ... I urge all those who honor Terri Schiavo to continue to work to build a culture of life where all Americans are welcomed and valued and protected." Okay...and how do the gays fit in there? Him and his right-wing cronies have made it obvious that they don't value or welcome us.
I'm going to hell, you say? Duh...I already had my ringside seat picked out for W's arrival. Please pass the popcorn. ¶ 3/31/2005 11:58:00 AM 2 comments
I'm going to hell, you say? Duh...I already had my ringside seat picked out for W's arrival. Please pass the popcorn. ¶ 3/31/2005 11:58:00 AM 2 comments
Artwork
Okay...okay...you can relax now. I have added some of my artwork to my online photo page now. No need to stress out about it! LOL Just kidding. Seriously, though, a few people have asked to see some of my stuff, and have requested tattoos as well. This is only a few of my things...working on getting the rest uploaded later. (Oh..and please excuse the somewhat poor quality...taking pictures with camera phone doesn't always work that well) Enjoy!!
My Artwork ¶ 3/31/2005 04:29:00 AM 0 comments
My Artwork ¶ 3/31/2005 04:29:00 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
The things that make you go hmm....
Why do people continually insist on hurting themselves? Why do people think that it is better to blame others for their problems than focusing on themselves and fixing it? I never did understand that...always had a hard time figuring that one out.
Recently a friend of mine got herself fired from work, but her stubborness didn't want to listen to anything, so she cussed out everyone, slung her stuff around the cube while packing up and left. Every time she passes by the building she lets the bird fly. Yet she has no income, more than likely will not be able to get unemployment, and is thinking of changing states because "it is warmer in the other state." I don't get it. Admit that you screwed up, look for something else, move on...and stop trying to drink yourself to death or get yourself so high you have no clue what you have done. It affected you at work...don't repeat the same mistake.
I don't know. I think I might have the issue because I was there at one time but could pull myself out of the depths. I have always been a somewhat strong person, always worked on finding myself a job, quit drugs without any outside help. I made it through Darrell's death without support from anyone; supported myself without my parents for a long time. I had to learn to be strong for myself because no one else could be...or would. It took me a long time to realize that...especially after my disaster of a "marriage" to a guy in Greensboro. It is funny because he will email me once in awhile and try to brag to me about all this stuff that he is doing with his new little boy toy and try to lord it over me as something I am missing out on. I didn't move to join him because I saw his true colours and saw that he had not changed at all from what he had said. Not much of a shock there, but I am a firm believer that people can change...I did.
So why go and hurt yourself more, and try to shove the blame on someone/something else? Any answers? ¶ 3/29/2005 04:31:00 AM 1 comments
Recently a friend of mine got herself fired from work, but her stubborness didn't want to listen to anything, so she cussed out everyone, slung her stuff around the cube while packing up and left. Every time she passes by the building she lets the bird fly. Yet she has no income, more than likely will not be able to get unemployment, and is thinking of changing states because "it is warmer in the other state." I don't get it. Admit that you screwed up, look for something else, move on...and stop trying to drink yourself to death or get yourself so high you have no clue what you have done. It affected you at work...don't repeat the same mistake.
I don't know. I think I might have the issue because I was there at one time but could pull myself out of the depths. I have always been a somewhat strong person, always worked on finding myself a job, quit drugs without any outside help. I made it through Darrell's death without support from anyone; supported myself without my parents for a long time. I had to learn to be strong for myself because no one else could be...or would. It took me a long time to realize that...especially after my disaster of a "marriage" to a guy in Greensboro. It is funny because he will email me once in awhile and try to brag to me about all this stuff that he is doing with his new little boy toy and try to lord it over me as something I am missing out on. I didn't move to join him because I saw his true colours and saw that he had not changed at all from what he had said. Not much of a shock there, but I am a firm believer that people can change...I did.
So why go and hurt yourself more, and try to shove the blame on someone/something else? Any answers? ¶ 3/29/2005 04:31:00 AM 1 comments
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
I know, I know...
I have been out of it for the last few days. Sorry. This week has been somewhat busy since we only have a 4 day work week. Yippee!! But that means that I am trying to cramp in more meetings into fewer days and get it all worked out. Joy. Can I please have that drink now?
So I have been following that Terri Schiavo case somewhat in the last few days. I spent some time on Yahoo posting comments regarding the case too. I am sorry; I am of the opinion that the government should stay out of our personal lives, and I am ashamed of her parents dragging Congress, the President, and the courts into it. It is out of selfishness that they are doing this. It has been 15 years since this poor woman has been on a version of life-support with the feeding tubes. If her parents were so sure that she could recover with therapy, then why didn't they start it themselves and pay for it? Or hell, why didn't they start teaching her how to eat and talk again themselves? You do the same thing with a baby...what is stopping them from doing it with Terri now? In my opinion, they are being very selfish about all of this. No parent wants their child to die before them, but there is a cutoff point. There is medical evidence of everything. If their faith is all that they claim it to be, then she should have been better by now. Sorry...haven't seen that happen. The current administration and Congress have taken away precious time from the things that truly matter: the national deficit, the soldiers that are still in Iraq, and our general safety among other things. There is no need for them to get involved in this. Sorry, even the judges are agreeing with this. Stupidity...that is the only word that works right now for it.
But I digress. The postings that I read on Yahoo had me cracking up like crazy. There are people calling Democrats Nazis, other calling conservatives and Republicans assholes and jerks (among other things); Jews being linked to the repeated appearance of this in the news; Jews controlling everything with this country; a larger plot by gays to win their marriage rights. Not once did I see someone actually willing to sit there and debate this logically. All the majority of us know about Terri is what we have seen in the news. We have not actually seen her in the hospice, watched her in person and seen the evidence for ourselves. We have seen videos taken by the parents of her "better" days. We hear the doctors discussing this, and I am sorry, I will take the word of a doctor over personal views of circumstances. But I do know one thing: If I am ever trapped in a hospital/hospice on life support and my partner is told that there is nothing more that can be done for me, please take me off and give me my liberty and freedom in death. I don't want to have my family/loved ones going through more anguish seeing me hooked up to tubes and wires. Hopefully I will die peacefully on the beach one day, but you never know. That is my living will.
I have a very short patience for people who don't do their own job. They just bitch about it and leave all the work for someone else to do. Monday I was so pissed when I worked the door. The person who was on it Friday bitched all day about not wanting to be at work, not wanting to work the door. There were so many problems that I had to fix...I was so mad. If you don't like it here, then find another job and let someone else work here!!! My god...I know plenty of people that would love to work for my company and can't because some idiot wants to take up the precious space bitching all the time.
But I do know one thing...if this air doesn't get fixed soon, I am going to pass out listening to dance remixes of Lara Fabian and my contacts will be stuck to dried husks of eye balls. Lovely picture, huh? 5pm is not going to come soon enough. ¶ 3/23/2005 10:21:00 AM 0 comments
So I have been following that Terri Schiavo case somewhat in the last few days. I spent some time on Yahoo posting comments regarding the case too. I am sorry; I am of the opinion that the government should stay out of our personal lives, and I am ashamed of her parents dragging Congress, the President, and the courts into it. It is out of selfishness that they are doing this. It has been 15 years since this poor woman has been on a version of life-support with the feeding tubes. If her parents were so sure that she could recover with therapy, then why didn't they start it themselves and pay for it? Or hell, why didn't they start teaching her how to eat and talk again themselves? You do the same thing with a baby...what is stopping them from doing it with Terri now? In my opinion, they are being very selfish about all of this. No parent wants their child to die before them, but there is a cutoff point. There is medical evidence of everything. If their faith is all that they claim it to be, then she should have been better by now. Sorry...haven't seen that happen. The current administration and Congress have taken away precious time from the things that truly matter: the national deficit, the soldiers that are still in Iraq, and our general safety among other things. There is no need for them to get involved in this. Sorry, even the judges are agreeing with this. Stupidity...that is the only word that works right now for it.
But I digress. The postings that I read on Yahoo had me cracking up like crazy. There are people calling Democrats Nazis, other calling conservatives and Republicans assholes and jerks (among other things); Jews being linked to the repeated appearance of this in the news; Jews controlling everything with this country; a larger plot by gays to win their marriage rights. Not once did I see someone actually willing to sit there and debate this logically. All the majority of us know about Terri is what we have seen in the news. We have not actually seen her in the hospice, watched her in person and seen the evidence for ourselves. We have seen videos taken by the parents of her "better" days. We hear the doctors discussing this, and I am sorry, I will take the word of a doctor over personal views of circumstances. But I do know one thing: If I am ever trapped in a hospital/hospice on life support and my partner is told that there is nothing more that can be done for me, please take me off and give me my liberty and freedom in death. I don't want to have my family/loved ones going through more anguish seeing me hooked up to tubes and wires. Hopefully I will die peacefully on the beach one day, but you never know. That is my living will.
I have a very short patience for people who don't do their own job. They just bitch about it and leave all the work for someone else to do. Monday I was so pissed when I worked the door. The person who was on it Friday bitched all day about not wanting to be at work, not wanting to work the door. There were so many problems that I had to fix...I was so mad. If you don't like it here, then find another job and let someone else work here!!! My god...I know plenty of people that would love to work for my company and can't because some idiot wants to take up the precious space bitching all the time.
But I do know one thing...if this air doesn't get fixed soon, I am going to pass out listening to dance remixes of Lara Fabian and my contacts will be stuck to dried husks of eye balls. Lovely picture, huh? 5pm is not going to come soon enough. ¶ 3/23/2005 10:21:00 AM 0 comments
Friday, March 18, 2005
Just a little something....
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
¶ 3/18/2005 09:52:00 AM 0 comments
| A | Appealing |
| I | Ideal |
| D | Distinguished |
| E | Exquisite |
| N | Natural |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
| I | Innocent |
| A | Astonishing |
| N | Nice |
Movie Night
Okay, I know that yesterday was St. Patty's Day, and normally that requires a person to go out with friends and get shit-faced drunk. And, if things were different, I might have done just that for the first time in.....forever. I have not been out to a bar/pub/club/whatever in a long time, and I have never been just for March 17th. But that is okay...stopped at Best Buy for some new movies and then at the grocery store to pick up some Guinness (yeah, the dog loves stout too we have found out; he lapped it off of the plate like it was candy), and then on to the house. A hot shower and sleep pants later (yes, commando again), I was on the chair at the TV with a half of sub, a bottle of Guinness, and watching the Incredibles.
If you didn't see it in the theatres, then I suggest you go out and at least rent it. A little serious for Disney/Pixar, but extremely hilarious all the same. They have tamed the language (I think I heard one "darn" instead of "damn"), but fun for all ages. Okay, just so you have a little synopsis, here are the basics: Super heroes are forced to go into retirement among the people...live as their secret identities. The father wants more, wants to relive the old days, so he takes on a job for a mysterious financer and ends up in trouble. The family has to save him and learns that they make a good team. A pretty good movie...gets 5 stars from me. ¶ 3/18/2005 04:05:00 AM 0 comments
If you didn't see it in the theatres, then I suggest you go out and at least rent it. A little serious for Disney/Pixar, but extremely hilarious all the same. They have tamed the language (I think I heard one "darn" instead of "damn"), but fun for all ages. Okay, just so you have a little synopsis, here are the basics: Super heroes are forced to go into retirement among the people...live as their secret identities. The father wants more, wants to relive the old days, so he takes on a job for a mysterious financer and ends up in trouble. The family has to save him and learns that they make a good team. A pretty good movie...gets 5 stars from me. ¶ 3/18/2005 04:05:00 AM 0 comments
Thursday, March 17, 2005
I'm b-a-a-ck (a second time)
Okay, so I have already written this up one time this morning....and somehow it got locked up and never posted. So here is one more try.
I'm Back!!!! Did you miss me? Oh, I really do hope so. (As this is typed to myself and maybe a couple of other people) Where did I go? Why thanks for asking.
I headed up to Raleigh for all of last week to help them out in their office. Apparently they were really backed up with some projects, so a few of us took a little trip. It was nice for me because I got to see some people that I had not worked with for a long time...and some of my old friends too. Had to put in that obligatory appearance at the 'rents' place too. Dad fixed my car some for me, so that called for dinner one night. The rest of the time I ended up hanging with some of the folks from work, although I did get to see a couple of friends from the old days. It was so nice...see people and feel like no time had passed by as you hang out just like old times. Then you start reliving the old days and how much you drank when you were younger and barely even legal for anything. That was the really freaky part. But it was kinda kewl. I miss my friends from there. But I didn't get to see all whom I wanted. Amber was MIA, Joe was busy with work, Todd was sick and Rick I saw briefly for dinner on Sunday after I got up there. Curtis was the only one I really got to spend some time with. That was nice. Oh duh, I said that already. LOL Just blame it on the hair chemicals I have used over the last 12 years.
Did you ever know how hard it was to get off without any materials handy? I had to sit there without dvd, video or magazines and get off in the evenings so I could try to sleep. And then again when I got up, right before my shower. Not that my dvd player was working right. It would play cds with no problem, but the movies wouldn't do any sound. I was so pissed off.
But I do have to say that apparently I still have it. I had to bring some pizza up to one of my co-worker's room, which had to be on another floor. I didn't think about it...I just walked out with just the sleep pants on (and I mean JUST the sleep pants) and passed by a gay couple getting out of the elevator. The funny part is that the inside of the elevator was mirrored, so you can see what the other person's face looks like if they are behind you. There were a few looks from them. And then my friend was a little put out by me just showing up like that. Turned out that the gay couple had gone to the wrong floor too....they did a few more double takes when I walked back the elevator to head back to my room. I felt special. :-)
Okay...and since I needed a few new pics, I decided to take some...whatcha think?
Nothing much...just a tease and my new recycled shirt. :-) You have to look good for work once in while. And the rest of the time, just let it all hang out. LOL
Anyway, I am just finally getting back into my paces here at my office...been a long week and it is almost over already. Yeah!!! Only a few more months before the summer starts, and I really can't wait for it. I am determined to not take off any more days before then...maybe I can get a full week off of work one of these days. Only six more pay periods or so and I will be all set!!!
Anyway, I better finish lunch...I have a meeting today at one that I "must" attend. Talk to you soon!
Oh...and Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!!
¶ 3/17/2005 08:53:00 AM 0 comments
I'm Back!!!! Did you miss me? Oh, I really do hope so. (As this is typed to myself and maybe a couple of other people) Where did I go? Why thanks for asking.
I headed up to Raleigh for all of last week to help them out in their office. Apparently they were really backed up with some projects, so a few of us took a little trip. It was nice for me because I got to see some people that I had not worked with for a long time...and some of my old friends too. Had to put in that obligatory appearance at the 'rents' place too. Dad fixed my car some for me, so that called for dinner one night. The rest of the time I ended up hanging with some of the folks from work, although I did get to see a couple of friends from the old days. It was so nice...see people and feel like no time had passed by as you hang out just like old times. Then you start reliving the old days and how much you drank when you were younger and barely even legal for anything. That was the really freaky part. But it was kinda kewl. I miss my friends from there. But I didn't get to see all whom I wanted. Amber was MIA, Joe was busy with work, Todd was sick and Rick I saw briefly for dinner on Sunday after I got up there. Curtis was the only one I really got to spend some time with. That was nice. Oh duh, I said that already. LOL Just blame it on the hair chemicals I have used over the last 12 years.
Did you ever know how hard it was to get off without any materials handy? I had to sit there without dvd, video or magazines and get off in the evenings so I could try to sleep. And then again when I got up, right before my shower. Not that my dvd player was working right. It would play cds with no problem, but the movies wouldn't do any sound. I was so pissed off.
But I do have to say that apparently I still have it. I had to bring some pizza up to one of my co-worker's room, which had to be on another floor. I didn't think about it...I just walked out with just the sleep pants on (and I mean JUST the sleep pants) and passed by a gay couple getting out of the elevator. The funny part is that the inside of the elevator was mirrored, so you can see what the other person's face looks like if they are behind you. There were a few looks from them. And then my friend was a little put out by me just showing up like that. Turned out that the gay couple had gone to the wrong floor too....they did a few more double takes when I walked back the elevator to head back to my room. I felt special. :-)
Okay...and since I needed a few new pics, I decided to take some...whatcha think?
Nothing much...just a tease and my new recycled shirt. :-) You have to look good for work once in while. And the rest of the time, just let it all hang out. LOL
Anyway, I am just finally getting back into my paces here at my office...been a long week and it is almost over already. Yeah!!! Only a few more months before the summer starts, and I really can't wait for it. I am determined to not take off any more days before then...maybe I can get a full week off of work one of these days. Only six more pay periods or so and I will be all set!!!
Anyway, I better finish lunch...I have a meeting today at one that I "must" attend. Talk to you soon!
Oh...and Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!!
¶ 3/17/2005 08:53:00 AM 0 comments
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Hi, My name is Gwen and I am here to wa-a-a-ash your vagina
Okay, so I had to get re-confirmation on why I love Margaret Cho so fucking much.
I had her second and third tours on dvd (ya know, NOTORIOUS C.H.O. and REVOLUTION), but I had never gotten a chance to watch the first one (I'M THE ONE I WANT). Matt got it for me a few weeks ago as my birthday present, but I never got a chance to watch it. Well, after dinner with Jay and trying to figure out what to do, I suggested what about our place and a movie. Of course we had to wait for West Wing to go off, and then sit through the first 20 minutes or so to watch Danny take his shirt off on Queer Eye for the Straight Girl. (God he is so hot..and pulls off that bald look so well....*drool*) Let me go find that dish rag I keep here for the drool piles. So anyway, we finally started watching Cho and could not keep the laughter down. And then the Gwen. God, am I happy that I am not a lady!!! I don't need a nurse telling me, "Hi, my name is Gwen and I am here to wa-a-a--ash your vagina"! We all just busted out laughing so hard with that one. At one point during the sketch, Jay had just taken a sip of tea and nearly spewed it out laughing so hard. He had to cover his mouth and was choking when he finally did swallow. Damn, I wish I had my camera then...was so funny.
Yeah...I need to have a "Cho night" and play all three in one night. Any takers? ¶ 3/03/2005 10:42:00 AM 0 comments
I had her second and third tours on dvd (ya know, NOTORIOUS C.H.O. and REVOLUTION), but I had never gotten a chance to watch the first one (I'M THE ONE I WANT). Matt got it for me a few weeks ago as my birthday present, but I never got a chance to watch it. Well, after dinner with Jay and trying to figure out what to do, I suggested what about our place and a movie. Of course we had to wait for West Wing to go off, and then sit through the first 20 minutes or so to watch Danny take his shirt off on Queer Eye for the Straight Girl. (God he is so hot..and pulls off that bald look so well....*drool*) Let me go find that dish rag I keep here for the drool piles. So anyway, we finally started watching Cho and could not keep the laughter down. And then the Gwen. God, am I happy that I am not a lady!!! I don't need a nurse telling me, "Hi, my name is Gwen and I am here to wa-a-a--ash your vagina"! We all just busted out laughing so hard with that one. At one point during the sketch, Jay had just taken a sip of tea and nearly spewed it out laughing so hard. He had to cover his mouth and was choking when he finally did swallow. Damn, I wish I had my camera then...was so funny.
Yeah...I need to have a "Cho night" and play all three in one night. Any takers? ¶ 3/03/2005 10:42:00 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Boredom
So I wake up at 5 this morning and had to ask myself why. What is the point of getting up when you know that nothing major is going on at work? I mean for the last three days here, it has been pretty much nothing but complete busy work. I left early Friday because of it, but damn...there is nothing here. And I have no clue as to why I go home and am so tired lately, either. It isn't like I don't sleep a lot anyway. Oh wait, I don't sleep that much. LOL I did finally remember to bring home my fountain and put it behind the Buddha in my room...makes for a nice little decor addition. Now if I could only figure out how to cut the flow down some so it didn't hit so hard on the screen...that would be nice.
music playing: Pet Shop Boys: Introspective ¶ 3/01/2005 10:10:00 AM 0 comments
music playing: Pet Shop Boys: Introspective ¶ 3/01/2005 10:10:00 AM 0 comments
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